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eyes - i’ve been told that my voice can irritate / lyricism’s at best second-rate / i come off as obsessive and crazed / and not even in the cutesy way / but i’ve loved a psychotic amount / and it hurts but i’d like to make it count / cuz when you’re gone now far before your time / what more can i do than simply whine? / so before the final train departs / i’d like to show this world i’ve got / quite a lot / within my heart / so i wanna see if it’s alright / i wanna see if i’ll survive / through the night / i’ll really try / so why don’t we just close our eyes / to all the horror in our lives? / this world may cut you down to size / but you’re perfect in my mind / so won’cha run away with me? / so won’cha run away with me?

if at first you don’t succeed... - if you say that you’re leaving won’t you give me a reason before you go? / held together by stitches, i’ll take my dreams and my wishes, you’ll never know / may be my second stay here but as the end of the day nears i see the light / don’t’cha say that you miss me, when you’ve gone out and ditched me, it isn’t right / the world i know, the world has shown it doesn’t care for me / and if at first it just don’t work then try ‘til you succeed / ah, the fight isn’t worth it, i’ve been screwed from my birth, think i’m gonna crack / you can leave me your flowers, but you don’t have the power to bring me back / the world i know, the world has shown it doesn’t care for me / and if at first it just don’t work then try ‘til you succeed / you can guess the way i get when i am left alone / sitting still with fever chills, this place is my new home / as i lay down, still bleeding out, across the dirty floor / my parting sight, with my own eyes, you walking out the door, oh / if you know that i’m leaving won’t you give me a reason not to go? / held together by stitches, i took my dreams and my wishes, you’ll never know

this moment - i'm sure by now that you're asleep / as i lay thinking 'bout my week / it's looking relatively bleak / but that's discounting you + me / there's no need to apologize / you've done no wrong within my eyes / i get we've had our "moments" / but this moment i would love to spend with you / i always wanted something more / here you are outside the door / now i've got someone to live for / so what exactly are we waiting for? / sweetest letter, mi amor / wrapped up in your metaphors / i wish that you'd be more direct / but i'll take all that i can get / i'm overwhelmed so easily / unstable in the scheme of things / but you've taken the time to see / that i am just a human being / i always wanted something more / here you are outside the door / now i've got someone to live for / so what exactly are we waiting for? / i always wanted something more / here you are outside the door / now i've got someone to live for / so what exactly are we waiting for? / every waking moment of my life / i wanna spend with you / and you alone… / some will say attachment issues / but i think it's clear that i love you / and you alone! / la da-da da-da da-da / la da-da da-da da-da / la-da da-da da-da da-da / da da-da da-da da-da da-da, ah / (one, two, three, four)

remember me - time to leave this awful room and venture through this world / i've had ev'rything handed to me, too bad my hands were full / i never thought i'd get this far with all the shit i've seen / but now i stand here on my own with unaccomplished dreams / take a look at me / and tell me what you see / am i still a nobody / i've been told my forefather would dabble in the arts / he worked day in and day out 'til his tired ol' heart gave out / and as i roam the city streets it comes as quite the shock / that under all these layers of paint granddaddy left his mark / take a look at me, wow / and tell me what you see / am i still a nobody / won’cha give me reasons to believe, ooh / so if i’m struggling once again to get my points across / i’d like to be remembered as some contributing force / i’ve done fuck-all these fourteen years but that changes today / just take a look inside the books and you’ll see monkeybang / so how will you remember me? / so how will you remember me? / so how will you remember me? / so how will you remember me?

colon / right parenthesis [instrumental] - 👀❤️❤️🎀

nice to know you - been a prisoner of my own mind each passing year / now i could use a shoulder, to smother with my ugly tears / and i’d say that you could fit this mold / guess that i will always be your dear attention whore / would love to know what goes on in that pretty head of yours / or rather anybody’s but my own / nice to know you / love to show you / i’m not so shallow dear / can’t you read me? i’m so easy / well i’m far too shallow dear / you can call me morning wood, the way i stiffen up / and stumble over all my words, i’m on the verge of giving up / but i’m sure you’ll come around with time / fluctuating tempo of my heart is bound to kill / i may not make it thru the week but it’s all worth it for the thrill / and the sense of almost being alive / nice to know you / love to show you / i’m not so shallow dear / can’t you read me? i’m so easy / well i’m far too shallow dear / baby, sweetie / won’t you meet me? / somewhere less shallow dear, you, well / it’s far too shallow here / take a little inside joke and run it to the ground / then we’ll drag it on and on until they run us out of town / a small price to pay to hear your laugh / find the nearest razor, carve your name into my arm / so that you’ll be with me in a way no matter where you are / if they ask it’s just some weird birthmark, ah / nice to know you / love to show you / i’m not so shallow dear / can’t you read me? i’m so easy / well i’m far too shallow dear / baby, sweetie / won’t you meet me? / somewhere less shallow dear, you, well / it’s far too shallow here / you’re far too shallow dear, yes, you / i’m far too shallow dear for you / we’re all so shallow dear / but you, but you, but you, you…

i like u - gimmie life, gimmie love / tell me what you’re thinking of / sing to me of your delusions / i can never have enough / there’s no more sorrow, no more pain / all my worries down the drain 

funny everything has changed and yet it all still feels the same / tore me up and stole my heart / death can never do us part / won’cha take me out but not too fast / i just wanna let this last / cuz you’re all that i see and you’re all that i need and you’re all that i dream at night / at the end of day all my woes go away, oh, the moment i see you smile / let them scoff, let them laugh, they don’t know what they’re missing / oh i’ve got this funny feeling i like u / oh wake me up, drag me on / this world is ours and ours alone / we can stare down the monotony / as it all comes crashing down / take my hand, hold me tight / i say we leave this town tonight / oh just swear to me you won’t let go / we’ll kiss this dump goodbye… / tore me up and stole my heart / death can never do us part / won’cha take me out but not too fast / i just wanna let this last / cuz you’re all that i see and you’re all that i need and you’re all that i dream at night / at the end of day all my woes go away, oh, the moment i see you smile / let them scoff, let them laugh, they don’t know what they’re missing / oh i’ve got this funny feeling i like u / yeah i like u!

caroline - oh so there was this girl / who didn’t know she had an inside voice / and it seemed the whole world / did whatever they could to drown out the noise / sometimes it seems like she’s never around / i’ve got a clue as to where she’ll be found / caroline baby / always on the run / riding the night train / anywhere but home / she’s been dealt a bad hand / a monkey’s paw and some monkey rage / and it ain’t easy to stand / with the weight of the world running thru your veins / sometimes i feel like you’re leading me on / can’t say i’d mind if she wants to prove me wrong… / caroline baby / always on the run / riding the night train / anywhere but home / stay for a while / take in all the sights / i get that you’re hurting / but would it really hurt to get some peace of mind? / won’cha tell me something / won’cha give me a sign? / do you see something in me / or am i wasting your time? / love to get to know you / yeah i’d love to catch up / where the hell do we go from here? / i don’t know

waiting game - patiently waiting, my heart and soul aching / just when will that damn doorbell ring? / i’d love to hear all the things you hold dear / all the workings that make your world spin / you may not know it yet but i’m quite a lot like you / i’ve got a lot to say, there’s a lot i’ve yet to do / but you’re in your own world and i’m told that it takes two / so now i’m stuck playing life’s cruel waiting game / surely it’s too soon to say that i love you / a slow burn is all that i dream / but when you’re explaining your hyperfixations / the way that you glow and you beam, well… / you may not know it yet but i’m quite a lot like you / i’ve got a lot to say, there’s a lot i’ve yet to do / but you’re in your own world and i’m told that it takes two / so now i’m stuck playing life’s cruel waiting game / i’m never one to make the first move / don’t need to prove that your prenotions are true / so why don’t we just give it time / as we get on with our cruel lives / impatiently waiting, my heart and soul aching / just when will that damn doorbell ring? / ‘cuz i’d love to hear all the things you hold dear / all the workings that make your world spin / as you do mine

go to sleep - i must say, you’re looking pretty dead / why not squeeze a pillow under that sleepy little head? / your eyes have bags, you’re looking lost / you cannot form coherent thought / what’s this? (wow!) a way to make it all quit? / lemme say / why don’t you go to sleep? / i know, i know / it seems like such a snooze, just trust me please / why don’t you go to sleep? / i know, i know / i know i know, i know i know i know / i can’t lie, you’ve seen better days / now what if i told you that in 6 to 8 hours you can make it all go away? / a pillow soft, a blanket thick / that’s all you need to do the trick / but how? (i dunno!) listen closely now / when i say / why don’t you go to sleep? / i know, i know / it seems like such a snooze, just trust me please / why don’t you go to sleep? / i know, i know / i know i know, i know i know i know

(there is) nothing left to lose - i hear no evil in you and me / i hear no evil in you and me / now maybe this ain’t what it seems / still i hear no evil in you and me / i’m sure it’s clear by now / i’m sure word’s gotten ‘round / the way i’m feeling about you, oo-oo-ooo / how do you feel ‘bout this? / the signals, they’re all mixed / i’d love for you to drop a clue, oo-oo-ooo / so while there’s nothing much to gain from this / i’d say there’s nothing left to lose, oh / i see no evil in you and me / i see no evil in you and me / now maybe this ain’t what it seems / still i hear no evil in you, you and me… / the novelty’s all gone / joke’s gone on far too long / what is there more that we could do, oo-oo-ooo? / i like the things you wear / the dog bows in your hair / i’d like to be somebody too, oo-oo-ooo / so while there’s nothing much to gain from this / i’d say there’s nothing left to lose / oh, ohh, oh / i speak no evil of you and me / i speak no evil of you and me / now maybe this ain’t what it seems / still i speak no evil of you and me…

bassist jokes [instrumental] - 🐟🐶

heaven - all that i really wanna do / is watch the sun go down with you / nobody else can appreciate / their souls adorned with petty hate / i’m not giving up, no, i’m not one for settlin’ / especially knowin’ i’m just outside heaven / i’m not giving up, no, i’m not one for settlin’ / especially knowin’ i’m just outside heaven / look at my old schemes and you will find / they’ve all been prepared with you in mind / and just to show you how hard i’m trying / i’ve even got bassboy to show up on time / he usually doesn’t do that, y’know / not giving up, no, i’m not one for settlin’ / especially knowin’ i’m just outside heaven / not giving up, no, i’m not one for settlin’ / especially knowin’ i’m just outside heaven / not giving up, no, i’m not one for settlin’ / especially knowin’ i’m just outside…

<3 - everyone sucks / they all think i’m lame / nobody gets me / they just wanna get laid / they say that i’m stupid / they say that we’re freaks / they’ve called you some words that / i cannot repeat / today michael asked me / if you + i were a thing / i wasn’t sure how to answer / so let me know what you think / because we make a cute pair / at least according to bri / and while i may be biased / i’d have to say i agree / today a friend warned me / you’ve shown signs of bpd / that i oughta be cautious / and at times leave you be / and i’m no miracle worker / not aware of a cure / but i will do anything / to make life less of a chore / and with this rough year / it’s hard to blame you / for finding such comfort / in a dimly-lit room / but when you feel ready / to head on outside / i’ll be waiting right here / ready to stay by your side / be mine ‘til the end of time / then another fifteen minutes down the line / be mine ‘til the end of time / then another fifteen minutes down the line

we are going to beat you to death - do you mind if i find that i’m kind of inclined / to be loud for the crowd when i say that you’re such a tool / the band at your hand like a damn puppet stand / hiding behind us ‘cuz you know that she don’t want you / WE are going to beat YOU to DEATH (to DEATH) / WE are going to beat YOU to DEATH (to DEATH)

maybe i’d die - (one two three four five one two three / four five six seven one two three four) / she can’t make it to the gig, she says / the folk are visiting from out of the cave / the books are burning with the radios / her people aren’t into asian mind control / they’re all bugging her on how she’s been / of course she knows it doesn’t matter to them / “if they knew the way i live my life”, she says / “well maybe i’d—”  / “hm.. i feel like maybe i would—” / “hmm.” / she doesn’t hate ‘em, she tries not to complain / but maw and paw can be a real fuckin’ pain / the clocks are ticking and the times have changed / but that won’t stop ‘em from their primitive ways / her mama told her that her tights are for sluts / and dad says all the guys are looking to fuck / “should they ever see beyond my guise”, she says / “i feel like maybe i would—” / “i feel like i—probably like—” / “i think i’d just about—” / she stops herself. / (one two three four five one two three / four five six seven one two three four) / “if they knew i think that maybe i’d die.”

i got hit by a car - i got hit by a car / i got thrown pretty far / i lost my head almost / i painted the streets red with my blood / i think my legs are broken / my car is now very smokin' / i don't know anything else that rhymes with smokin' / i think i totaled my car / i think i took it too far / my name's babie sphinaje / yeah / yeah uh / yeah / yeah yeah uh / yeah yeah yuh / that's right / i hope i have insurance / but i don't / yeah / yeah / yeah / yuh / awesome / ??? / i need to go to the hospital now

a.o.n. - nothing / oh it’s all that you are / sorry little skull of yours ain’t worth nothing / yeah it’s all that you got / your darling holly left you and now you got nothing / you can lie all you want / but deep down you know you’re a whole bunch of nothing / you’re a shell of a man.. / oh you really couldn’t help yourself / and now you’ve got a special spot in hell / said i’d have it all / i got nothing / nothing to show...

daddy dearest - oh daddy dearest, won’t you listen to me please / the season’s changing and the same would go for me / i’ve got desires and all but you won’t let me be / anything other than your complacent dull baby / i’d presume it’s out of love / but soon you’ll be out of luck / i bet i’ll be out the door / by the time you realize: i’m not yours / oh daddy dearest, all i ask for is your ears / get what you’re feeling but you don’t get me, i fear / as everyone i know makes something of themselves / i’m left to rot away upon your highest shelf / i’d presume it’s out of love / but soon you’ll be out of luck / i bet i’ll be out the door / by the time you realize: i’m not yours

violet lights - what are they telling you / what are we coming to / all i ever wanted from you’s dead / tell me i’m paranoid / just wanna stop the noise / all i ever wanted was to / all i ever wanted was to / all i ever wanted was to breathe / and i wait and i wait and i wait and i wait and i wait / and i wait and i wait and i wait and i wait and i fall away / do what you gotta do / but don’cha hide it too / all i ever wanted from you’s gone / not lookin’ for a fight / but something isn’t right / all i ever wanted was to / all i ever wanted was to / all i ever wanted was to live / and i wait and i wait and i wait and i wait and i wait / and i wait and i wait and i wait and i wait and i wait / violet lights / illuminate your eyes / revealing all these lies / violet lights / illuminate your eyes / revealing all these lies / violent nights / your screams roll over mine / silencing my cries

bailey needs help! - i like the games that make me cry / the ones that remind me i’m real and alive / the fact that they could haunt me with one uncomfy scene / the fact that that could have been me / sometimes i want to make you cry / as to remind you that i’m real and alive / the fact that i could ruin you with one impulsive move / my only chance of getting through

misery (down, down, down) - now maybe i just fear too much / but you’ve been looking pretty rough / not sure what i can do, but i hope you know how much i care for you / better my ears than your arms / drowning in your misery / you could surely use some company / eradicate your stress, i swear to god that i won’t interject / cuz i don’t wanna drag you down, down, down / let me drown, drown, drown / so make a wish, i’m your shooting star / swear i’ll help you thru the nite / and should i crash, burn myself right out / well i guess i’ll see you on the other side / i’ve had enough / it all keeps adding up and up / i’ve been places wish i’d never been / and i’ve seen things no one should ever see / it drags me down / if i could die for you i would / to see you live the way you should / quit with the stoic act, y’know anyone can see right through the cracks / enough with secrets, just let it out, out, out / i won’t let you down, down, down / so make a wish on that shooting star / and squeeze my name between the lines / so when i crash, burn myself right out / well i guess i’ll see you on the other side

bone soup - i lost the war, i lost the fight / and yet i’m standing here alive / in everything but mind / don’t speak, don’t lie / don’t say it’s gonna be alright / ‘cuz i’ve seen otherwise / i know that you can’t stand the thought of replacing me / but if you listen up i swear you’ll be thanking me / walk me thru this world of hurt / is life a miracle or am i cursed? / i want off the ride / i got a lot, i got you / shouldn’t be feeling so blue / but who the hell am i to decide? / now i don’t want to leave you broken or stressed / but if you care you’ll set me free from this mess / of bone soup, bone soup / boney me and fleshy you / bone soup, we are, we are / bone soup, bone soup / some sick pile of your blood and screws / bone soup, we are, we are / dig me in and shut me out / six feet under’s what i’m talkin’ ‘bout / i’m unexposed at last / i lost the war, i lost the fight / and yet i’m standing here alive / but wait ‘til my next try / bone soup, bone soup / boney me and fleshy you / bone soup, we are, we are / bone soup, bone soup / some sick pile of your blood and screws / bone soup, we are, we are

reflect [instrumental] - 👁️👁️

y’know (bailey’s song) - i can’t help but find the reasons in your mind / i can’t help but see all you gave to me / there’s no need to tell me i can see it in your eyes / but it doesn’t hurt to let it out, it won’t kill you to try / woah oh oh, oh / y’know y’know you’re beautiful you sweet and tortured soul / there’s more than you would ever think beneath your scars and bows / y’know y’know you’re wonderful and you deserve it all / i’m here for you to lean on if you need some place to fall / do you still remember those days when we first met? / a buncha dopes with chalk in hand and nothing to regret / i take a look into your eyes and i still see her there / so if you can’t fight for yourself no more at least do it for her / please? / y’know y’know you’re beautiful you sweet and tortured soul / there’s more than you would ever think beneath your scars and bows / y’know y’know you’re wonderful and you deserve it all / i’m here for you to lean on if you need some place to fall / y’know y’know you’re beautiful you sweet and tortured soul / there’s more than you would ever think beneath your scars and bows / y’know y’know you’re wonderful and you deserve it all / i’m here for you to lean on if you need some place to fall / y’know, oh-oh, luv / y’know, oh-oh, no / y’know y’know you’re wonderful and you deserve it all / i’m here for you to lean on if you need some place to fall <3

bleed - you give me reason in a world i’ve come to dread / still seems a blob of grey but there’s a little swatch of red / that pretty voice of yours is drowning out the sound / of the screams. of the dead. and the tired / should the sky come crashing down i can’t say i’d mind / should the earth shatter i’d still say today’s alright / i hate to say, it’s so cliché, but there’s no place i’d rather be / should the life drain from my eyes i think i’ll be fine / ooh oh oh i’m so divided / would you like me if i shut my mouth? / believe me when i say i’m lucky to be yours / world’s still a pile of shit but at least it ain’t a bore / i was so numb to life but now i’ve got the energy / to fake it. we’ll make it. or try. right? / should the sky come crashing down i can’t say i’d mind / should the earth shatter i’d still say today’s alright / i hate to say, it’s so cliché, but there’s no place i’d rather be / should the life drain from my eyes i think i’ll be fine / with you

young dumb love - drive, drive, drive my truck / pickin’ up some beer / truckity, truckity, truckity, truckity / fuckin’ hate my wife / the day is new, and that’s my cue / to fin’ly spend some time with you / we’ve worked right through our age-old blues / why don’t we treat ourselves this noon / the feels are high, the scope is wide / it’s ours to take within my mind / now you and i can spend some time / on conquering that fear of heights / well, getting by day to day, it burns, it burns / well, getting by day to day, it burns, it burns / so i get you, and you get me / at least as far as i can see / and finally, there seems to be / someone with whom i can agree / so you’ve got dreams, of bigger things / and i know damn well you can sing / so why don’t we, oh pretty please / go work on our new masterpiece / well, getting by day to day, it burns, it burns / well, getting by day to day, it burns, it burns / now i don’t know if you’re thinking what i’m thinking / with this young dumb love i feel i’m really livin’ / forget the rise, forget the fall / forget logicistics of it all / my mouth is shut, my eyes are wide / now why don’t we just go enjoy the ride / the day is old, so i’ve been told / the weather grows ever so cold / it takes its toll, it hurts my soul / but that’s just life, well i suppose / elizabeth, riddle me this / can you picture a world in which / we make it there, the people care / our names are shining in times square / well, getting by day to day, it burns, it burns / well, getting by day to day, it burns, it burns / now i don’t know if you’re thinking what i’m thinking / with this young dumb love i feel i’m really livin’ / forget the rise, forget the fall / forget logicistics of it all / my mouth is shut, my eyes are wide / now why don’t we just go enjoy the ride / why don’t we just go enjoy the ride, hey-hey

my darlin’ vocaloid girl from hell - "well if that makes me emo then i guess i’m emo" / organized with malice in their hearts / to drain our lives of what sets us apart / they’ll knock us down, they’ll sell us out / the way they see it we’re not well / well we’re the shit and you are it / my darlin’ vocaloid girl from hell  and so i’ve heard that there’s a world out there beyond this town / i’d bet far less intent on bashing and breaking us down / i hear the last train’s leaving now / move to the tune of my heart’s final beats / away to a place where their hatred can’t reach / over our shoulders we’ll wish them farewell / and dance as the town closes in on itself / not your fault this town is so silly / our beauties are their monstrosities / i know you’ll try ‘n’ say otherwise / facial dysmorphia, you can’t tell / but i’m in awe, you’re without flaw / my darlin’ vocaloid girl from hell / before you know i’ll feel at home within my own body / we’ll be dressed up, the kind of stuff you only see in dreams / so won’cha be my demiqueen? / move to the tune of my heart’s final beats / away to a place where their hatred can’t reach / over our shoulders we’ll wish them farewell / and dance as the town closes in on itself / move to the tune of my heart’s final beats / away to a place where their hatred can’t reach / over our shoulders we’ll wish them farewell / and dance as the town closes in on itself / "go melvin!" / "bassboy!" / "banga drumbo!"

new year’s eve - want you to listen / get thru to your head / don’t want you believin’ / a thing that i've said / i’m really quite awful / a league of my own / it's best to accept that / you're better alone / you say you love me / do you even know me / why would you trust me / an ugly mistake / want you to listen / get thru to your head / don’t want you believin’ / a thing that i've said / i’m really quite awful / a league of my own / it's best to accept that / you're better alone / you say you love me / do you even know me / why would you trust me / an ugly mistake / get out of my conscience / you're being too loud / just spare me one minute / i'll sort this mess out / out…

new year’s day [instrumental] - 👍👍🌸🌸🎊🎊🎉🎉

reality [acoustic] - another day of living free / another day of harsh realities / fucked up and driven up the wall / feel like we’ve been here before / oh can’t you tell that nothing’s gonna change / it’s you and me against ourselves, it’s hell / you don’t know what goes around in my head / can’t you tell that we’d be better off dead? / it’s all inside of us there’s nowhere to hide / but i could bear the pain with you by my side / born to die and left to bleed / knock the living shit right out of me / i’m sure i’ll heal up in time / the truth is out there plain to see / reality ain’t waiting up for you / so make the most of what you lack / you don’t know what goes around in my head / can’t you tell that we’d be better off dead? / it’s all inside of us there’s nowhere to hide / but i could bear the pain with you by my side / can you hear me now? / can you hear me loud? / oh you don’t know what goes around in my head / can’t you tell that we’d be better off dead? / it’s all inside of us there’s nowhere to hide / but i could bear the pain with you by my side

all amped up - oh yeah! / haven’t heard from her in three days, lord knows why / wanted something easy, now i just wanna die / she’s gonna take my hand and take me to the grave / only course of action here is to fly away / haven’t heard from her in weeks, now i know why / i saw her out at northport, cuddling with some new guy / she takes his hand and says she’s found her other half / and in these troubled times, there’s really nothing i can do but laugh / well hardy har har!

smartfella - all that you want is all that you’ve gotten / do what you want, all is forgotten / “everything’s fine” as your life fades away / “everything’s great” as it all turns to grey / wish i could be as smart a fella as you / wish i could be as smart a fella as you / all that you want is all that you’ve gotten / keep up the act til it goes rotten / “everything’s fine” as your life fades away / “everything’s perfect” like you always say / wish i could be as smart a fella as you / wish i could be as smart a fella as you / i made my mistakes / yeah i made my mistakes, i have my regrets / i couldn’t move on, i couldn’t go back / i wanted to live but nothing like this, oh nothing like this / live with your regrets / stabbing at your chest / eating at your flesh until the end / i’m really quite impressed / i never woulda guessed / that i could be as smart a fella as you / smart a fella as you / smart a fella as you / smart a fella as you / all that you got is all that i wanted / how do you live feeling so haunted / “everything’s fine” as your life fades away / “everything’s great” when it all goes your way / wish i could be as smart a fella as you / wish i could be as smart a fella as you / wish i could be as smart a fella as you / wish i could be as smart a fella as you / smart a fella as you / smart a fella as you / smart a fella as you, you, you, you, YOU / i’m really quite impressed / i never woulda guessed / that i could be as smart a fella as you / smart a fella as you / smart a fella as you

fartsmella - oh no where are you / oh no i need you / oh no where could you be / gotta make you quit gotta make you quit / gotta make you stop this same ol shit / happy now? / fartsmella! / oh i know what you want / and it’s all that you got / but you want more and more and more from me / oh no where are you / oh no i need you / oh no i bleed for you / gotta shut you up gotta shut you up / gotta keep that trap of yours zipped shut / cut it out / fartsmella! / oh i know what you want / and it’s all that you got / but you want more and more and more and more from me / can’t you see? / are you better? / feeling better? / hope that this’ll make your day / are you better? / feeling better? better? better? better? woah / fartsmella! / oh i know what you want / and it’s all that you got / but you want more and more and more and more and more…

heteronormativity - secluded, deluded / if you think that i’m gonna stay /  you reject, no respect / for the shit i take from all your dumb friends every day / a walk-thru, in my shoes / i’m sure would send you to an early grave / oh baby, you’re crazy / if you think that i’m gonna stay / just cuz someone said it had to be this way / you reek of heteronormativity and it shows / this friendship went to shit / cuz freaks like you just want the benefits / oh baby, you’re crazy / if you think that i’m gonna stay / just cuz someone said it had to be this way / you reek of heteronormativity and it shows / not a chance that i’m gonna stay / just cuz you were brought up to believe that way / you reek of heteronormativity and it shows / so if you think that i’m gonna stay / just cuz someone said it had to be this way / you reek of heteronormativity and it shows / not a chance that i’m gonna stay / just cuz you were brought up to believe that way / you reek of heteronormativity and it shows

2014 - you say i’m helpless and you’re not wrong / you say you’re happy but still you don’t belong / i hear your reasons, i see your mood / and yet it’s killing me, just what’s a boy to do / but say hey? / think you’re a little bit crazy / think you’re a little insane / and that’s all right / i say hey / think you’re a little deranged / think you’re a little insane / and i don’t mind / you say i’m helpless when you’re away / i can’t refute this so baby won’t you stay? / thanks for the memories, thanks for your time / but i’ve gotta go now, somewhere you draw the line / sayin’ hey / think i’m a little bit crazy / think i’m a little insane / that’s all right / i said hey / think i’m a little bit crazy / think i’m a little deranged / hope you won’t mind, ah-hoh / sayin’ hey / think you’re a little bit crazy / think we’re a little insane / that’s all right / i said hey / think we’re a little insane / think we’re a little deranged / hope you won’t mind, ah-hoh / ah-hoh / oh, hoh-oh / ah-hoh / (that bass note was totally flat.)

well what are you going to do about it? - "well…" /  "what are you gonna do about it?" / "then learn how to handle your emotions" / "you can't sit there like a duck waiting for your emotions to strike you down" / "i know i probably sound harsh but the truth is I'm really fucking tired of people not even trying and giving up when they have felt only a fraction of the shit i have to deal with daily and if i can live through it and learn how to cope then others can too" / "you need to learn what makes you feel like that and make it stop and figure out how to deal with it you can't hide from your emotions forever" / "well to be honest idk how to help with how to handle that its a job for you to figure out really i know you can do it even if it will take a while" / "to be honest i dont even know what you see in me even when i act like this"

o.o.t. interlude [instrumental] - 🎹

out of tune - here and there and back to where we were before we cared / vicious cycle of our apathies / cursed and blessed and second guessing everything i know / cuz it feels so right / yeah it feels so right / sun is rising on a new you and a new worldview / never know the mood i’ll find you in / leave me bleating screaming weeping teeming with false hope / cuz it feels so right / yeah it feels so right / so if this sounds out of tune to you or not quite your style / then maybe you and i have never been quite right / but if you’re down for a gamble or a roll of the dice / i say we give it one more shot / live a life of pain and strife and mediocrity / bounded by our vows and phony love / down and out and wondering out loud where did we go wrong? / cuz this just ain’t right. yeah this just ain’t right / so if this sounds out of tune to you or not quite your style / then maybe you and me we weren’t meant to be / but if you’re down for a gamble or a roll of the dice / i say we give it one more… / shot in the dark i think i’ll take / can’t tell when i’m gonna break / meet me at hot topic tonite / before i have had enough of life

circles - not getting anywhere no matter what we try / it's plain to see we're not so well / it's great to have someone that makes you feel alive / but when that life's a living hell / god i still love you but i gotta love myself / and as it stands we're going round / in circles / so i've been told that good things come to those who wait / too bad my patience is running thin / the world’s collapsing now, we’re bound to suffocate / there really ain’t no way to win / i'm hoping one day we can fin'ly work this out / look on back and share a laugh / but even if we do / i'll always have my doubts / seems to me we just go round / in circles / in circles / hey won’t you break the cycle and let me out? / won’t you break the cycle and let me out

your plaything - it’s back again, don’t know why and don’t know when / this torture’s gonna end / so who the hell has got me on these strings? / the trail leads right back to you / all this tragedy, trauma caught on tape / i could use a fucking break / words just fade away, flicker out in time / but i hope you’ll take this into mind, mind / not sure what i is saw in you / that gives me hope, that maybe you can still break thru / you spend your days waiting around / like a duck, you’re begging to be struck right down / you turned me into this monstrosity / still finding out, what’s from you and what was me / feeling like a work of art / the way you stare, the way you watch me paint my arms / you’re always saying that you want the best / well if you meant it then you’d give it a rest! / awww you wouldn’t change a thing? / well that’s too bad, my head stings!! / it’s back again, don’t know why and don’t know when / this torture’s gonna end / so who the hell has got me on these strings? / the trail leads right back to you / all this tragedy, trauma caught on tape / i could use a fucking break / words just fade away, flicker out in time / but i hope you’ll take this into mind, your mind / whatever there is left of your mind / not sure when you’re gonna explode / but i sure hope i won’t be there to feel the blow

throwaway - you make love feel like such a chore / you leave me wanting so much more / i take it this won’t last / you’re something of the past / oh, oh, oh, no no no / i think you know, i think you know, i think you know, oh / oh, oh, oh, no no no / by now you know, by now you know, by now you know, oh / you make love feel like such a chore / don’t even try, you just bore / i take it this won’t last / get your head out your ass / oh, oh, oh, no no no / i think you know, i think you know, i think you know, oh / oh, oh, oh, no no no / by now you know, by now you know, by now you know, oh / i cannot fathom us getting ‘round the bend / each conversation we are inching towards the end / i hope you’ve come to know how much i cherish you / the captain goes down with his ship so… toodle-oo

daisy - bailey / we used to pour our hearts out daily / now it’s quite the contrary / i’m greeted by her empty stare-y / i’m losing her, i’m losing her so bad / and you’re my last chance to be had / swear that this ain’t just a fad / won’t you please / hear my plea? / daisy / i think i’m going crazy / tell me she and i will be alright / woo me / show me all the beauty / in the world, however it may seem / let the harsh words flow-ee / i’d bet if anyone would know-ee / how am i supposed to show-ee / i couldn’t stand to see her go-ee / you’re reading me, you’re reading me so well / am i bound straight for hell? / i’d wager that you could tell / won’t you please / notice me? / daisy / i think i’m going crazy / tell me she and i will be alright / woo me / show me all the beauty / in the world, however it may seem / in the world, however it may seem / in the world, however it may seem, yeah, yeah!

murder me - happy and healthy / and everything that i coulda been / had i left this well enough alone / before i went ahead and sold my soul / baby don’t be intimidated / it’s just this mess that you’ve created / oh i really hate to say / i seen it coming your way, i seen it coming your way / find yourself gathering good hell / don’cha yearn for the chance to be free? / don’cha think that it’s real plain to see? / that you’re murdering me / mayhaps within that first degree / i mean it’s real plain to see / the way you’re murdering me / the way you’re aching to see me bleed / will you ever see the light?

huh-why-ee [instrumental] - 🧽

breathe - hey i don't know / if you've heard or you've been told / but the act is getting old / give it up / sure you can see / you can do just as you please / but the clocks won't stop for me / as for you… / fuck you / once long ago / this wide world was all my own / then i handed off the robe / and the crown / now i’m your clown / maybe something further down / at least jesters can amuse / whereas i… / i hear your call on empty streets / i've no idea what this all means / i see your way i see your will / and god i swear if looks could kill i'm dead / let me breathe / let me see all i can see oh please let me breathe / let me breathe / let me be all i can be all i can be / let me breathe / hey i don't know / if you've heard or you've been told / but the act is getting old / give it up / sure you can see / you can do just as you please / but the clocks won't stop for me / as for you… / i hear your call on empty streets / i've no idea what this all means / i see your way i see your will / and god i swear if looks could kill / you’d do me six feet under oh i'm dead / let me breathe let me see all i can see oh please let me breathe / let me breathe / let me be all i can be all i can be / let me breathe... / oh i beg / let me breathe / let me see all i can see oh please let me breathe / let me breathe / let me be all i can be all i can be / let me breathe... 

for you - i hope this finds you well /as with the many songs before / and surely many yet to write / it may be hard to tell / but you’re the reason i wake up / you’re the reason i still try / and if this is goodbye / it hurts like hell but i swear that i won’t cry / i did it all for you / this isn’t working out / it only hurts the both of us / i’ve become a nervous wreck / i think we need some time apart / a brief moment of silence / oh a moment to reflect / i had a dream last night / i stood up at your casket / and i said my last goodbyes / i cannot live this life / so this is where i put my foot down / this is where i draw the line / so if this is goodbye / it hurts like hell but i swear that i won’t cry / i did it all for you

the world is such a pretty place (when you’re not screaming in my ear) - when you left me / you emotionally wrecked me / but looking back i’m happy that we’re through / you made me feel /  that i was doing evil / the only evil that i’ve done was you / lots to see, so much to hear / aside from your whining & tears / i’ve come to this conclusion, my consensus is quite clear / the world is such a pretty place when you’re not screaming in my ear / yeah-uh, the world is such a pretty place when you’re not screaming in my ear

silence. (for what it’s worth) - silence / nothing left to hear / nothing left to say / no-one left to wish away / chances / opportunities / open up to me / to be what i could never be / take a look / in the rearview mirror / the wreckage burns / but it’s not my problem anymore / silence / i finally hear the storm / i finally hear the rain / i finally hear the hurricane / spinning / spinning round my head / spinning round my mind / in the space you’ve left behind / take a look / at the road ahead / minefield / i’m as good as dead / silence / need something to hear / need something to say / i need someone to save the day / bibi / save me from myself / save me from the noise / or i guess the lack thereof / for what it’s worth / i would hate me too / for what it’s worth / you were right, ah / na na na na na na la ha-lah / la la la la la da da da, i’m all alone

lost in transmission [instrumental] - <(0_0<) <(0_0)> (>0_0)>

sound of my heart - my blood boils at the mere sound of your voice / i’m only nice because i haven’t got a choice / can we just call this quits? i’d love to find some joy / and some fulfillment in the way you never tried / i’ve got my wants and needs that you can’t satisfy / just get the fuck away and stay out of my life / i told you over and over and over and over / and over and over and over and over again / looked in the mirror and now i finally see / all the potential that you’ve sucked right outta me / had i not wasted time just think where i could be / my only memories with you are much abhorred / just take the photographs, i won’t need them no more / the kindest thing i’ll say is that you were a bore / i told you over and over and over and over / and over and over and over and over / and over and over and over and over / and over and over and over and over again / sound of my heart says i want out / sound of my heart says i want out

bittersweetie - so do you think that we could try? / if not right now then maybe in some other life / we barely made it out before / but should we just put in the effort we could be forevermore / wait! baby / wait! don’t leave / words can’t explain how much i need to hear you talk / i cannot live this life just waiting for your call / that last go got pretty rough / and i can’t blame you if you feel you’ve had enough / we’d never try and talk it out / we’d just bottle up our feelings ‘til they burst right out our mouths / i’ve never been the best with words / if you’ve listened to these songs i’m sure you’ve heard / but you always seemed to kinda care / and a little bit of me believes that bit of you’s still there / wait! you 🫵/ wait! don’t leave / i cannot give to you the things i’ve yet to find / but i can take the time and cast a better me to life / you swore you’d stand by me and help me thru it all -/ that offer’s sounding nice, bibi i’m begging you, please call / please call / please call / please call

harsh reality - another night to struggle through / another night of putting up with you / i’d say i’m bound to blow my fuse, soon / taken away all my friends / more alone now than i’ve ever been / it’s only me, myself, and i, oh why? / you’re predictable and shallow at best / why say “we”? don’t drag me into this mess / your sick pleasures bring me nothing but pain / your reality is one and the same / we’re still young, we’ve got some time / waste yours but stay away from mine / i’m making something of this life / the truth is out there, plain to see / i’m tired of your company / enjoy this time before i leave, i’m free / i can read your every thought that you have / you can jump but i’m fine right where i stand / finally got my life under control / got no choice but to put this call on hold / you’re predictable and shallow at best / why say “we”? don’t drag me into this mess / your sick pleasures bring me nothing but pain / your reality is one and the same

this is a song called “finger” - woo! / flipper, finger, faster than lightning / world of wonder, i wonder how you sleep / you know i’m a spiteful little bitch / i know one way i can scratch this itch / you hurt me more than you know / and just to remind you that you fucking blow / no time for words, i’ll just flip you the bird / and as you slip away i’ll get on with my day

die - you sick fuck / don’t ever come back / screwed me up / but that didn’t matter / all too much / because you’re still after / your sweet luv / is that why you’re running / that why you’re running / that why you’re running ‘round? / cuz that’s why i’m leaving / that’s why i’m leaving / that’s why i’m leaving town / think y’know / everything in my / head because / you see right thru me / like i’m slow / sorry but that ain’t / how it goes / but once i get going / once i get going / once i get going again / your little dream is / your little dream is / your little dream is dead / so when you’re living on the streets / don’t come crawling back to me / we’re past the age of sympathies / i’m doing better no thanks to you / find someone else’s life to ruin / just promise me you won’t visit soon / ‘cuz i am freeeeee / now i’m wondering why i’d have ever given you the light of day / given you the light of day / ohh, ugly, selfish, unemployed, you’re never gonna take the blame / you’re never gonna take the blame / so when you’re living on the streets / don’t come crawling back to me / we’re past the age of sympathies / i’m doing better no thanks to you / find someone else’s life to ruin / just promise me you won’t visit soon / ‘cuz i am freeeeee

immature - please don’t / break my heart / please don’t / break my heart / i’m too / sensitive / immature / not all there / baby / what more can i do? / baby / what more can i tell you? / baby / what more can i do? / baby / what more can i tell you? / lie to me / try to see / i can’t be / saved

creep - i was hoping that by now i’d get thru to you / but you’re denser than i thought and my patience is thru / thought that this was all done but here we are / for a while there’s been something i’ve been wanting to say / while the others only pity you i feel hate / drownin’ in your ego drownin’ in your ego / i can’t even see you no more / you little rodent, you waste of time / you are my thirteenth reason why / you got the money, you got the girl / maybe one day you’ll get what you deserve / i was hoping you’d get somewhere with your life / swear i saw you take the keys, put the thing in drive / guess i missed the part where the engine explodes / so you think you’ll get away with the shit you pull  / well lemme tell you buddy karma’s coming for you / drownin’ in your ego drownin’ in your ego / i can’t even see you no more / you little shitter, you waste of time / you are my thirteenth reason why / you got the money, you got the girl / maybe one day you’ll get what you deserve / i was hoping that by now i’d get thru to you / but you’re denser than i thought and my patience is thru / thought that this was all done but here we are / for a while there’s been something i’ve been wanting to say / while the others only pity you i feel hate / drownin’ in your ego drownin’ in your ego / i can’t even see you no more / you little rodent, you waste of time / you are my thirteenth reason why / you got the money, you got the girl / maybe one day you’ll get what you deserve / mama says you’re a creep / mama says her boy’s a creep

heaven [full band] - all i really wanna do / is spend just one more day with you / i’ll admit i was hoping that we’d last til the end / but i haven’t changed and now you’re on the mend / not giving up, no, i’m not one for settlin’ / especially knowin’ i’m so far from heaven / not giving up, no, i’m not one for settlin’ / especially knowin’ i’m so far from heaven / you’ve got the world in the palm of your hand / all i’ve got is memories and this shitty band / can’t you just meet in the middle with me / so i can die happy and you can be free / from having to put up with me. / not giving up, no, i’m not one for settlin’ / especially knowin’ i’m so far from heaven / not giving up, no, i’m not one for settlin’ / especially knowin’ i’m so far from heaven / not giving up, no, i’m not one for settlin’ / especially knowin’ i’m so far from heaven / not giving up, no, i’m not one for settlin’ / especially knowin’ i’m so far from heaven / this key change makes no sense / but please tell me one thing that’s happened in the past three years that’s made any sense, agh

tear your heart out - transcription W.I.P.

commack lover - i’m back to square one / dog days have begun / i’ll take back this town / you can’t drag me down / i’ve got a lot to learn, i’ve got a lot to see / i’ve got the time to learn what makes me me / and now i’ve come to find that there’s a world outside / the curtain’s dropped, no longer am i blind / i’ve got a lot to learn, i’ve got a lot to see / i’ve got the time to learn what makes me me / and now i’ve come to find that there’s a world outside / the curtain’s dropped, no longer am i blind / wonder in my eyes / you watched as it died / i thought the world of you / i guess i spoke too soon / you’re nowhere to be found / and yet it all keeps spinnin’ round, yet it all keeps spinnin’ round / i’ve got a lot to learn, i’ve got a lot to see / i’ve got the time to learn what makes me me / and now i’ve come to find that there’s a world outside / the curtain’s dropped, no longer am i blind / i’ve got a lot to learn, i’ve got a lot to see / i’ve got the time to learn what makes me me / and now i’ve come to find that there’s a world outside / the curtain’s dropped, no longer am i blind / wonder in my eyes / you watched as it died / but to my surprise / once again alive, alive, alive! / i really should have known / i really should have known

dog days - hoo-hoo-hoo-hoo-hoo-hoo-hoo-hoo / ding-ding-ding-ding-ding-ding-ding-ding

bassdog - (band banter) / “wait, jake, play that again” /  the early bird gets the worm / the early bird gets the worm  / you grab him by the neck and you watch him squirm / the early bird gets the worm / the cat’s been let out the bag / the cat’s been let out the bag / just about brainless, he zigs and he zags / the cat’s been let out the bag / don’t you leave me stranded in the deep / oh run away yeah you little bassdog / don’t you leave me drowning out at sea / oh run away yeah you little bassdog / go run away yeah you little bassdog / why don’t you run away yeah you little bassdog, oh / there’s plenty more fish in the sea / there’s plenty more fish in the sea / swimming around in my feces and pee / there’s plenty more fish in the sea / the dog days have begun / the dog days have begun / the weatherman may tell you that spring has sprung / but the dog days have begun / don’t you leave me stranded in the deep / oh run away yeah you little bassdog / don’t you leave me drowning out at sea / oh run away yeah you little bassdog / go run away yeah you little bassdog / why don’t you run away yeah you little bassdog / don’t you run away yeah you little bassdog, oh

loved & alive - i sure do feel stupid, i sure do feel dumb / you warned me time & time again, i just wanted some fun / i appreciate your refraining from rubbing it in my face / if everybody had your decency the world’d be a better place / i feel loved & alive… / i don’t know where i’m going, i don’t know what what to do / but i can say i know now to stay away— from you-know-who / promised me a better future, promised me a better life / little did i know the ones who really cared were right here by my side / i feel loved & alive / now that a certain someone’s out of my life / i feel loved & alive / now that a certain someone’s out of my life / “you’re on your own, kid”

droney - never did i think that you’d be the one to kill me / every indecision just another attempt to get at me / all your little lies do nothing at all to deceive me / do what you want not like anybody’s gonna believe me / is it that hard to listen? / we can take it all / take the world / in our hands / really shoulda known that you weren’t gonna let me go gently / promises are broken and the last shred of hope has left me left me here / shoulda seen this coming but i guess i couldn’t help but believe it / maybe i’ll know better the next time you tell me you love me dear / is it that hard to listen? / we can take it all / take the world / in our hands

weinercat - weinercat / weinercat / can you tell me why? / can you tell me why? / cuz you know that i’d do anything for you / weinercat / weinercat / you are all that’s right / you are all that’s right / and you know that i’d do anything for you / all in all it all revolves around you / all in all it all revolves around you / weinercat / weinercat / i can see the light / i can see the light / but i know that you’d do anything for me / weinercat / weinercat / can you tell me why? / can you tell me why? / because i thought that you’d do anything for me / all in all it all revolves around you / all in all it all revolves around you / all in all it all revolves around you / all in all it all revolves around you 

last song - today i feel that nothing's gone right / the sun has set yet something still shines / you're gone, moved on, still ringing inside / ditched the scene as quickly as you came into my life / you don't owe me anything i just wanna be free / you can't seem to recognize what you mean to me / one last song to be sung / one less heart to be strung / if this is what you want / then this is what you'll get, i bid farewell / so now i'm scared i'm tired i'm cold / my calls gone out unanswered unknown / i've tried to brave this winter alone / but it's hard to move on forward when you've got my heart on hold / you don't owe me anything i just wanna be free / you can't seem to recognize what you mean to me / don’t you tell me otherwise you're making me unreal / not that hard to understand i just can't stand to feel / one last song to be sung / one less heart to be strung / if this is what you want / then this is what you'll get. i bid farewell 

i want to scream / monkey see, monkey do - how can you just walk on by / as if we never met / something’s changed within your eyes / i’m not quite sure what yet / if i meant as much to you / as you swore and pled / you'd be shouting from the roof / just beside the ledge / always doesn’t always mean always like you always said to me / always wanted something more, now i only want to scream / was i just a joke to you? / a novelty at best? / words defy me as you have.. / monkey see, monkey do, monkey has it out for you / monkey see, monkey do, monkey has it out for you / piss break of doom and despair / always know you’ll be right there / memories come flooding in / bleed them straight out thru my skin / piss break of doom and despair / always know you’ll be right there / memories come flooding in / bleed them straight out thru my skin / monkey see, monkey do, monkey has it out for you / monkey see, monkey do, monkey has it out for you / always doesn’t always mean always like you always said to me / always wanted something more, now i only want to scream / was i just a joke to you? / a novelty at best? / words defy me as you have / i’ll put my voice to rest

pity - i’m not so sure quite how to put this / in a manner that you’ll understand / how can you be just so pathetic? / why did i let you take my hand? / secret’s out / no good route / i can’t help / rot in hell / you were the best of a bad situation / i don’t owe you any explanation / i pity the fool who bows down to you / you were the best of a bad situation / i don’t owe you any explanation / i pity the fool who bows down to you / i saw you as a baby on my doorstep / helpless, dumb, and left for dead / now i see that you’re just plain ol’ stupid / buying into things i never said / smiley face / doubts erased / uncomfy / leave me be / you were the best of a bad situation / i don’t owe you any explanation / i pity the fool who bows down to you / you were the best of a bad situation / i don’t owe you any explanation / i pity the fool who bows down to you / what’s to say? / separate ways / jealous bitch / won’t be missed

lullabye - remember the notes we’d pass / teacher made you step out of the class / remember the jokes that we had / the others thought we had gone mad / forget me / forget me not / i don’t mind, just live your life / i love you all <3

not in the mood [instrumental] - transcription W.I.P.

sirens - say goodbye to me sweetie / say goodbye to me dear / let our eyes meet one last time tonite, tonite / i don’t mean to scare you / but this could be the end, oh / what is there left for me to do? / sirens scream / someone bleeds / and all i can think about is you / is it fate? / say hello to me sweetie / say hello to me dear / give me a sign that you’re still here / know you don’t mean to scare me / but could this be the end? oh / just why should i believe in you? / sirens scream / someone bleeds / and all i can think about is you / is it fate? / i can’t stand the noise / i can’t stand the noise / and i looked into the mirror last night / all i saw was a pretty blonde / so why won’t you just tell me what’s going on?

pisser - just a simple question baby / it’s just a simple question baby / twist my words, oh, twist my words / i’d like a simple answer baby / i’d like a simple answer baby / help me out, oh, won’t you please? / it’s the last ride home / take your last shot now / won’cha please promise me this? / now just spare your pretty wrists / so i can sleep tonight / such an odd connection baby / such an odd connection baby / severed and yet going strong / miscommunications baby / miscommunications baby / are sure to be the death of me / it’s the last ride home / take your last shot now / won’cha please promise me this? / now just spare your pretty wrists / so i can sleep tonight / it’s the last ride home / take your last shot now / won’cha please promise me this? / now just spare your pretty wrists / so i can sleep tonight / i can’t live with you, i can’t live without you / there’s something irresistable-ish about you / i’ll grin and bear it ‘cuz these nights are long / i hope that something better comes along..

the great displeasure of meeting you - i ask the simplest task and yet you still can’t be assed / to listen to anything but the sound of your own gross voice / thought i’d give you a chance, in spite the rambles and rants / it grows apparent that i’ve made the wrong choice / well now you’re one to talk, you better watch where you walk / you’re gonna trip on your own damn words / seems you’re falling behind, well can’t you make up your mind? / because you’re never gettin’ nowhere like this / all in your control / swear they’ll never know / you! knew! fucker / you! knew! runt / your! fault! sucker / your! fault! cunt / hate to be the bearer of bad news but this gig is thru / you’ve got no choice but to look for your next victim soon / i had a word with your girl, she’s sick of all your control / seems to me that you’ll be rotting alone / i’ll sure you’ll find someone new, somebody else to abuse / maybe you’ll even find someone as awful as you / but that’s a pretty high bar to reach, don’cha think? / i’m sure that it must stink / swear they’ll never know / all in your control / you! knew! fucker / you! knew! runt / your! fault! sucker / your! fault! cunt / you! knew! fucker / you! knew! runt / your! fault! sucker / your! fault! cunt

still fighting - strung out on my ego / and sleepless sleeping pills / i’m told that i should hate you / or harbor some ill will / but we both know that i’m the one to blame / so i’m still fighting / for you / yeah i’m still fighting / for you / what’s there left to say / that hasn’t yet been said / with you i see my future / without you, good as dead / and i could really use a happy end / so i’m still fighting / for you / yeah i’m still fighting / for you / so i’ve heard you’ve heard i’ve heard / you never cared too much / my sick desire to love someone / your need for human touch / but in my heart i know that we were real / so i’m still fighting / for you / yeah i’m still fighting / for you

sixteen - sixteen wasted years gone past / sixteen wasted years gone in a flash / you never know just how time kicks your ass / victim of conformity / victim of your own cruel self esteem / you’ve dug yourself a hole that’s far too deep / and still i’m not quite sure just where i stand / and still i’m not quite sure just who i am / but i’m tired of waiting, tired of hating / tired of standing around / no more weeping, no more sleeping / done with you selling me out / tell me once don’t tell me twice / if you could shut your mouth that would be nice / i’ve heard this story far too many times / got me thinking once again / has all this time with you been spent in vain? / cuz thru it all i still can feel your pain / and still i’m not quite sure just where i stand / and still i’m not quite sure just who i am / will any of this matter down the line / have all these sixteen years been wasted time / i don’t know!! / sixteen wasted years gone past / sixteen wasted years gone in a flash / you never know just how time kicks your ass

the songwriting process - counting down the days / it’s all been such a haze / but still i like to say that i’ll reach you / take a melody / and add some words that mean / nothing to me and surely less to you / an easy life would have been nice / but now we’re binded [sic] by sheer cruel design / as i write these songs / i’ve yet to right my wrongs / a sick sense of belonging just to you

pay your royalties (to the tagen) - pick up the phone boys tagen's calling / bitchin’ ‘bout volume and all that squallin' / says you’ve been making a pretty buck / but with the name no deal's been struck / forgot who gave you that monkey’s title / can't come up with songs sitting extra idle / monkey bang? oh that’s a shame / gonna rip 'em all out till he’s defanged / bang bang, warn the gang / monkeys pissin' on yo name / see no evil, speak no evil / hear that racket? sounds so feeble / ain't no monkeys jumpin' on the bed / band fell off, ears bleeding red / shocked your monkey? ran out of lucky / best go on home and scratch your nutties / "monkeybang", so the chimp sang / best go to your jungle, sit there and hang / zoo's been waiting for a fool like you / fling some shit and they won’t screw / monkey, monkey, feelin' so funky / even insulted by videogamedunkey / go pick them bugs off your homie’s back / looking at me? just go home and pack / running out of music, better pick up the slack / when tagen's around no turnin' back / remember on the track when tagen said that name? / the one givin' you that vision of fame / what you forgotten it? oh shame shame shame / little king wants that royalty claimed / look at that band, they hittin' that note / even lakes on rats are keeping afloat / is that little chimp still pulling on that chain? / better than plucking on those silly strangs / bang bang, warn the gang / monkeys pissin' on yo name / see no evil, speak no evil / hear that racket? sounds so feeble / monkeys jumpin' on the bed / band fell off, ears bleeding red / shocked your monkey? ran out of lucky / best go home and scratch your nutties / "monkeybang", so the chimp sang / go back to your jungle, sit there and hang / zoo's been waiting for a fool like you  / fling some shit and they won’t screw / monkey, monkey, feelin' so funky / even insulted by videogamedunkey / go pick them bugs off your homie’s back / looking at me? boy, just go home and pack / running out of music better pick up the slack / when tagen's around no turnin' back / swinger from a vine, ain’t no friend of mine / go so tangled up, boy, what a bind / tasty bananas looking extra yellow / take the fruit away, you’ll sit there and bellow / dumb little monkeys got no wit / throwin' little fits while spanking it / taken the name, that’s some pretty big smack / never come around or he'll shoot you back / one little monkey jumping on the the bed / he fell off and cracked his head / went to the doctor and which i said / "ain't no monkeys jumping on the bed" / two little monkeysv jumping on the the bed / he fell off and cracked his head / went to the doctor for which i said / "ain't no monkeys jumping on the bed" / three little monkeys jumping on the the bed / band fell off, he cracked his head / went to the doctor and which i said / "ain't no monkeys jumping on the bed" / four little monkeys jumping on the the bed / he fell off and cracked his head / went to the doctor and which i said / "ain't no monkeys jumping on the bed" / five little monkeys jumping on the the bed / he fell off and cracked his head / went to the doctor for which i said / "ain't no monkeys jumping on the…" / “...bed.”

the big ceremony [instrumental] - 🎻🎻🎻🎻

graduation day - another day, another dime / another darling sputtered out before their time / sweet relief, and sleepy dreams / it tempts me every waking moment, as you’ve seen / forgotten pacts, it’s all an act / who is there to trust and who will shoot me back / this waiting game’s been pretty lame / promise me my time has come, no strings attached / won’t deny, nor justify / what a total goddamn asswipe i was / but you and i, so far behind / can we talk this out? / there’s so much more that i’d like to say / that i struggle to articulate / but you won’t do as much as look my way / so how the hell do i get it out before graduation day / graduation day / few more hours and i’m on my way / away / so maybe i’ll give up on life / to stop the overwhelming sickness in my mind / for all i know, it’s overblown / but when i’m wrong there’s no-one left to tell me so / so in time, when i die / i’ll take alook on to my right / i’ll see some face, or fill in the blanks / but it won’t be you / a friend told me i’ll always feel this way / and i’m inclined to believe what she says / because we’re really not too different / at least she puts that little bit of effort in / she admits, life’s a bitch / but it’s her bitch and she calls the shots / wish that i had that in mind / before i waited around, and baby, now it’s graduation day / graduation day / few more hours and you’re on your way / away…

tired (floating away) - it’s week after week after week after week / and i’m not seeing any signs of relief / but escape from reality hides in your sleep / it’s all i can think of now / floating away / floating away / floating away / i’m floating away / i’m floating away / i’m floating away / a long fucking day ends a long fucking week / and i want nothing more than to just go to sleep / if there’s anything more that you’d like to speak / you better make it quick / cuz i’m floating away / floating away / floating away / floating away / floating away / floating away

spasm - tear up all the fuckin pictures / and burn all the letters, burn all the letters / i don't want you leaving a single trace / oh just set the memories aflame / you're telling me i lost it / oh, did i ever really have it in the first place? / hell, did you ever have it? /i hope you know that deep down / you're no better than me /i saw you there / i saw you there / i saw you there / i saw you there / i saw you there / i saw you there, oh / oh the sun sets on another beautiful day / and with that a new one begins / oh but / what's setting them apart / what's the difference? / same ol’ same ol’… / i saw you there / i saw you there / i saw you there / i saw you there / i saw you there / i saw you there, oh / i saw you there / i saw you there / i saw you there / i saw you there / i saw you there / i saw you there

ghosts in the sky - ghosts in the sky at the hotel late at night / won’t shut their traps about the past and its delights / don’t know what it is they’re looking for or if it’s even here / but these ghosts in the sky will do anything but leave me be / ghosts in the sky through the window to my right / seeing as they’re ghosts and all you could say it’s a fright / what is there to gain from this, oh what is there to see / just a bunch of ghosts in the sky who thrive off my defeat / can’t be sure of anything no more / ghosts in the sky making getting by such a goddamn chore / ghosts in the sky out the door an ugly sight / ain’t gonna let me live down the day the music died / don’t know what it is they’re looking for or if it’s even here / but these ghosts in the sky will do anything but leave me be / can’t be sure of anything no more / ghosts in the sky making getting by such a goddamn chore

shit town blues - every passing minute, every passerby / grows ever so observent of my living lie / what have i got to show? what have i got to lose? / clearly nothing much, i’ve already lost you / walk down to the speedway, a crackhead tells me “stop!” / he asks me to drop ev’rything, i give him all i got / then in an act of pity, he hands over a buck / and if i feel i've had enough / i'll just step into the road / let the streetcars tear me up / for what i am, a bag of bones / and when they throw me underground / without as much as a small tomb / it better be in some other town / i’ve got a case of shit town blues / nobody cares to listen, nobody understands / no-one to talk this out with, no-one to take my hand / but what can i expect? with all of my regrets / i’d say i got what i deserved, wouldn’t you agree? / during that final argument, the ugly week of may / you told me i’d find somebody who’d feel the same way / and purely out of spite, i’m turning down invites / and if i feel i've had enough / i'll just step into the road / let the streetcars tear me up / for what i am, a bag of bones / and when they throw me underground / without as much as a small tomb / it better be in some other town / i’ve got a case of shit town blues / and if i feel i've had enough / and if i feel i've had enough / and if i feel i've had enough, woah / and if i feel i've had enough / i’ve got a case of shit town blues, fuck you!

i am the man - i’m not looking to party / not to be a buzzkill / but you come off as a tad too obnoxious / and i will die on this hill / i’m not looking for a hookup / or someone to spend the night / but if you promise me you’re in it for life, well / i’m down as long as you— / understand / i’ve got a plan / cuz i am the man / well goddamn, baby, i am the man / even when nothing goes according to plan / i’m making a name, no time for your dumb games / so do me a favor: fuck off / i’m not looking to make it big / find another cash cow / i’m just trying to win my love back / not the point, anyhow / i don’t care for the songs you wanna hear / they mean nothing to me / by no means am i your personal jukebox / would you just happen to— / understand / i’ve got a plan / cuz i am the man / well goddamn, baby, i am the man / even when nothing goes according to plan / i’m making a name, no time for your dumb games / so do me a favor: fuck off / well goddamn, baby, i am the man / although nothing’s gone according to plan  / i’m making a name, no time for your dumb games / don’t give a damn if i sound out of tune / are you incapable of reading the room? / understand we are a one-man band / for you / well goddamn, baby, i am the man / even when nothing goes according to plan / i’m making a name, no time for your dumb games / so do me a favor: fuck off / notice me, worship me / tell me all the things i wanna hear / well goddamn, baby, i am the man / even when nothing goes according to plan / i’m making a name, no time for your dumb games / so do me a favor: fuck off

girl at the flea market [instrumental] - 🚀

la acoustica - do do do do do do / do do do do do do / do do do do do do / do do do do do do / how could i be so blind? / in front of me this entire time / the greatest catch, the perfect match, perhaps my better half / take a picture, make it last / i just wanna hold you in my arms / and keep you, i’d say, a ways away from— / i just wanna hold you in my arms / and keep you, i’d say, a ways away from haaaarrrmmm / do do do do do do / do do do do do do / do do do do do do / do do do do do do / enough about matching freak / i don’t know how you’ll ever match my geek / but here you are, beside my heart, with nothing in between / and for the first time i feel seen / i just wanna hold you in my arms / and keep you, i’d say, a ways away from— / i just wanna hold you in my arms / and keep you, i’d say, a ways away from haaaarrrmmm / if this ain’t destiny then i don’t know what is / how could i have always missed? / i just wanna hold you in my arms / and keep you, i’d say, a ways away from— / i just wanna hold you in my arms / and keep you, i’d say, a ways away from— / i just wanna hold you in my arms / and keep you, i’d say, a ways away / from haaaarrrmmm / if this ain’t destiny then i don’t know what is / how could i have always missed you / if this ain’t destiny then i don’t know what is / how could i have ever missed you

i’m in love with your best friend - i need appreciation / done with all this desecration / of the passion i felt just yesterday / as together we grow older / and with time i’ve grown much bolder / now i’ve fin’ly got the courage to say / i can’t say you’re insufferable / but somewhat of a handful / and the world does not revolve around you / but your buddy over there / i can say for sure she cares / about more than just her sorry ol’ self / i know this may sound harsh / perhaps a bit too far / you leave a lot to be desired… / i’m in love with your best friend / la-la, la-la-la, la-la, la-la / la-la, la-la-la, la-la, la-la / you’re the epitome of modern / oh it shouldn’t be a problem / when i cannot write you back all the time / and when i get ‘round to responding / oh i’m sure that you’ll be sobbing / over how i’m coming off as “so dry” / i know this may sound harsh / perhaps a bit too far / you leave a lot to be desired… / i’m in love with your best friend / la-la, la-la-la, la-la, la-la / la-la, la-la-la, la-la, la-la / la-la, la-la-la, la-la, la-la / la-la, la-la-la, la-la, la-la

vanity - whatever you dream / whatever your heart so desires / to keep alight your soul’s harsh fire / just please let me know / and baby i’ll be sure to go / ‘bout to the end of the planet or so / vanity / can’t you see? / i’m trying everything / to make this our reality / vanity / can’t you see? / i’m trying everything / but you gotta show some energy / immersed in a dream / i’m not quite sure just with who / but she looks a lot like you / settling down / in some waterside town / where her strange silence surrounds / monkey on a mission dear / he’s got a vision clear / he dreams the way you do / is it so alien to you? / vanity / can’t you see? / i’m trying everything / to make this our reality / vanity / can’t you see? / i’m trying everything / but you gotta show some energy / monkey on a mission dear / he’s got a vision clear / he dreams the way you do / is it so alien to you? / that a geek like lil’ ol’ me / could fall for a geek like lil’ ol’ you / and when i say the things i say / i mean as such in a most endearing way

i’d like 2 like u - hi hello, thanks a lot / i don’t know just what you want / would you like somebody sensitive, abrasive or whatnot / god, you’re beautiful, you’re hot / you’re everything that i am not / wish that i could be a heartthrob or rather somebody less blah / don’t you ever let me go / like the last one or the ones before / don’t you ever let me go / cuz i don’t think that i could take the fall / been knocked down, kicked around / it’s all been my own doing / wish that i could shut my mouth when i’m with u / forget tonight, forget the rest / feelin’ i’m not ready yet / maybe i just need some time alone as you’ve come to expect / but the isolation hurts / i cannot function, i get worse / just get back to me next month and hope that i don’t end things first / don’t you ever let me go / like the last one or the ones before / don’t you ever let me go / cuz i don’t think that i could take the fall / been knocked down, kicked around / it’s all been my own doing / wish that i could shut my mouth when i’m with u / ‘cuz i like u!

seven days - so i got myself a place / so very far away / but still in every face / i see a little bit of you / i smile and i wave / as i go about my day / thinking ‘bout the way / you’re doing much better than i / i’m always proving how / time in, time out / i am incapable of change / i met somebody today / and while it went okay / i felt as if my brain / was always in some other place / don’t think i’ll ever date / as still i cannot shake / the concept of soulmates / said “soulmates” being you and i / you’ll call me weak for this / for giving up / believe me when i say i’ve tried / seven days is all it really takes / seven days is all it really takes / seven days is all it really takes / seven days is all it really takes

lovebomber (once & for all) - now at the risk of sounding out of touch / don’t you think that you’re a little much / have you heard of this crazy little thing called love? / why would you tell me all your deepest woes / i’ve only known you for a week or so / what ever happened to taking this whole thing slow? / i wanna see you break / right down to your core / i wanna see you break / once and for all / years into months and weeks into days / bring me the next and then throw them away / minutes to seconds, oh, please spare me one? / who needs a lover when you’ve got a ton? / i wanna see you break / break and break some more / i wanna see you break / right down to your core / once and for all / you won’t shut up ‘bout wanting me inside you / when all i want is just to see inside you / if not to get a glimpse at how the hell you work / but we both know that this is all on me / trying to force myself into the scene / when we both know just what i really need / i need a lucky break / to get back on my feet / i need a lucky break / once and for all / years into months and weeks into days / bring me the next and then throw them away / minutes to seconds, oh, please spare me one? / who needs a lover when you’ve got a ton? / i need a lucky break / too stubborn for defeat / i need a lucky break / to get back on my feet / years into months and weeks into days / bring me the next and then throw them away / minutes to seconds, oh, please spare me one? / who needs a lover when you’ve got a ton? / i wanna see you break / break and break some more / i wanna see you break / right down to your core / once and for all

lucky guy - oh you’re beautiful / and you’re not mine / i should be bothered but i must say i feel fine / never thought that i would had a chance / you’re way out of my league / to settle down so easily would be a crime / so anyone can dream / but not many can say / that they’re the lucky guy you’re seeing today / i’ll admit we were always doomed / that whole stylistic clash / you needed someone a bit more bold & brash / but now you’ve got yourself / someone who brings out your best / far too enamored by the sight of you to protest / so anyone can dream / but not many can say / that they’re the lucky guy who’s spending the day / with you / so anyone can dream / but not many can say / that they’re the lucky guy you’re seeing today / so anyone can dream / but not many can say / that they’re the lucky guy who’s spending the day / with you / so anyone can dream / but not many can say / that they’re the lucky guy you’re seeing today / today / today

i hate it here - feeling that the best of years are all within my past / wish i took some pictures ‘cuz i knew it wouldn’t last / everybody needs someone but what do i deserve? / everybody’s got big dreams, who am i to judge? / close my eyes, and still you’re there beside me / open wide, wondering why i’m still alive / i’ve come to find / i think i need a break / i think i want a break, ay-yeah / oh-oh, oh-oh / oh-oh, oh-oh / i don’t know why i just sit and rot inside / maybe she’d want me if i only had the drive / everybody feels some way, i just can’t contemplate / everyone’ll have their day but how long will i wait? / close my eyes, and still you’re there beside / open wide, wondering why i’m still alive / la-di-da, it sure ain’t gettin’ easy / i’ve come to find / i think i need to break / i think i’m bound to break / i think i’ll take a break / ‘cuz i hate it here

i’m sorry - can you hear me? / wherever you’ve wound up in life / i wasn’t easy / and baby i’m sorry you had to deal / if i can’t love you / then i will love nobody else / if i can’t have you / then i will settle for myself / i still remember / the day i walked in to your tears / you said it’s not my fault / but baby i’m sorry you had to deal / i know i’m no-one / but you saw past my faults somehow / but you need someone / to treat you better than i have / i’d say i’d give it all away to you / but the things that i’ve still got in life are too few / sweetie i’m sorry

my dying call - i’m running out, should you know / i won’t be seen round here again / and should you doubt it / here’s my resignation signed and carved in blood / for all the broken and all the bruised / for all the loving that’s ensued / this is my dying call to you / my life is in the hands of you / this is my dying call to you / you, oh, oh, oh! / i’m burning out / what got me here / doesn’t matter now / it’s going dark / it’s all a blur / all i know / i can’t stand it anymore / each passing minute that i see / is draining all that’s left inside of me / you’ve heard i’m better, you’ve heard i’ve healed / did you hear me warn never to believe? / for all the broken and all the bruised / looking for a final resting place / for all the loving that’s ensued, oh/  this is my dying call to you / my life is in the hands of you / this is my dying call to you / cuz i can’t stand to prove / woah-oh, woah-oh, woah-oh, oh-oh-oh / woah-oh, woah-oh, woah-oh, oh-oh-oh / woah-oh

(christmas descends on jimmy) that time of the year - reached the year’s first snowfall and it’s a real sight to behold / you’d say it’s nothing special, but to me it won’t get old / and that alone would serve to prove the differences we’ve faced / but yet again i’ve found myself in need of your embrace / on and on and on and on, the days without you drag / gone is any semblance of the cheer that i once had / it's that time of the year today / and if you need a place to stay / the elements'll wear me down / but for you i'll tough it out / for you i'll tough it out / back at home for a new show with the classic m.b. crew / the band is back together but my heart is still in two / i’ll look into the audience the way i always do / the usuals have all pulled up but where the hell are you? / on and on and on and on, the days without you drag / gone is any semblance of the cheer that i once had / it's that time of the year today / and if you need a place to stay / the elements'll wear me down / but for you i'll tough it out /  for you i'll tough it out / it's that time of the year again / and as i sit here in the dead of the night / thinking how it all went down / wish that we could work things out / wish we could work things out

月の歌 - moonsong / me and you song / moonsong / me and you song, ah / here’s to the night / here’s to the night, baby / here’s to the night / here’s to the night

these are the songs that remind me of you - N/A

josephine - did you know your time had come? / how did you feel as your sisters all left home? / did you have dad’s drive? / did you have your mom’s eye for art? / now you’re just a name on a stone / now you’re just a name on a stone / weathered and faded, cracked and degraded / gone, long gone

mourning [instrumental] - 🪦💖🖤

i can’t - years go by, and still you cry / over the way that i gave it away / it’s all that i’ll get, but still i forget / the reason i’m here and the reason i’ll stay / the love that you’ve shown me, the love that you preach / the only thing left within reach / just cuz i can, don’t mean i will / and just cuz it’s easy, don’t make it right / maybe i should, but i really can’t / maybe i should, but i really can’t / never had too clear a thought / diluted with filth and promises gone / in it all, i lost who i was / your little darling, i’m never alone / getting by off petty lies will only hurt you more / so i suppose it’s time i come forth / just cuz i can, don’t mean i will / and just cuz it’s easy, don’t make it right / maybe i should, but i really can’t / maybe i should, but i really can’t / every day, the growing pains / making it harder to get thru each month / but you’ve worked hard, and gotten so far / i promise i won’t, though i know it’s not much / just cuz i can, don’t mean i will / and just cuz it’s easy, don’t make it right / maybe i should, but i really can’t / maybe i should, but i really can’t / just cuz i can, don’t mean i will / and just cuz it’s easy, don’t make it right / maybe i should, but i really can’t / maybe i should, but i really can’t 

passion project - N/A

redcat - you may think i’m in over my head / for keeping this bit going when you say it’s clearly dead / still i’ve no idea just what it is / that keeps me coming here when i’m not so sorely missed / and waiting, waiting, waiting / for you, for you / if it’s a hundred songs to win you back then it’s a hundred songs i’ll write / oh baby i can be your canvas, paint me me any way you’d like / and if you’re never coming back why don’t you shoot me where i lie? / cuz when i say that i’m in love, well, i’m in love / the promises we made that ugly night / you may have forgotten but they’re always on my mind / swore you’d be here ‘til the day i die / for better or for worse, yeah, i’m still breathing and alive / and waiting, waiting, waiting / for you, for you / if it’s a hundred songs to win you back then it’s a hundred songs i’ll write / oh baby i can be your canvas, paint me me any way you’d like / and if you’re never coming back why don’t you shoot me where i lie? / cuz when i say that i’m in love, well, i’m in love / cuz when i say that i’m in love, well, i’m in love / if it’s a hundred songs to win you back then it’s a hundred songs i’ll write / oh baby i can be your canvas, paint me me any way you’d like / and if you’re never coming back why don’t you shoot me where i lie? / cuz when i say that i’m in love, well, i’m in love / cuz when i say that i’m in love, well, i’m in love / cuz when i say that i’m in love, well, i’m in love / cuz when i say that i’m in love, well, i’m in love

high life - N/A

wish i could be as beautiful as you - oh magic mirror on the wall / you haven’t yet returned my call / i tried to make it obvious / but nobody can take a hint / ev’ryone loves you, now that much is true / wish i could some day be as beautiful as you / i’d like to spend the day with you / i’d love to live the way you do / and should our paths cross down the line / i hope that you won’t recognize / ev’ryone loves you, you know that it’s true / wish i could some day be as beautiful as you / but that day is not today, oh no

chug ‘n’ plug - suffering in silence / as my impatience grows / a sick amount of confidence / as for why, no-one knows / and why even bother? / it means nothing to you / but as a wise man once sang / nothing left here to lose / this is the last chance to set things right / this is the last chance of my whole life / spare me one final shred of dignity / it doesn’t take a broken heart to see / don’t know why i’m still here / but my brain sure does hurt / i guess the head trauma / was all for the worst / i had always told myself / it’ll be worth it soon / i assumed that you’d be there / to help me get through / this is the last chance to set things right / this is the last chance of my whole life / this is the last chance to set things right / this is the last chance of my whole life / spare me one final shred of dignity / it shouldn’t take a broken heart to see

one final promise - now i don’t believe i’m asking for a lot / but please do let me know if i’m misinformed / there’s only one person in this world i particularly care for / and one final promise i need fulfilled / so if you can help me or know anyone who can / i will do whatever it takes / the last time we spoke i believe i was fifteen / i didn’t realize what exactly was at stake / but i like to tell myself that i’ve changed with time / and there’s only one way to find out / and if you can help me or know anyone who can / i will do whatever it takes / people always tell me that i’m taking this too far / that this obsession is ruining my life / but ever since that starry december night / i’ve felt as if we were connected in a manner beyond my own / comprehension / somehow…

bailey's swansong [instrumental] - x_x

y'know, pt. ii (the song we never got to sing) - N/A

"coming to terms with the fact that i am almost certainly never going to be able to make amends with you, in spite of my best efforts, the latest of which being the release of this album containing well over a hundred songs, most of which were written with you in mind—being either generally about you, addressed towards you, or from your perspective (or rather my interpretation of what said perspective may have been, seeing as i can't just ask you), the latter of which being particularly enjoyable to write, as you are undoubtedly my favorite person ever, which i realize sounds ridiculous coming from a notorious egotist from myself, but it's true! i really mean it! i'm sick in the head & they should have me killed, or, at the very least, locked away for the remainder of my life" - was the title not enough??

monkeybang - now i'm not one to take requests / but here's a tune i'm sure you'll get / it’s pretty darn repetitive, i’m sure you’ll get the hang / now here’s a lil ballad ‘bout some… monkeybang / when i was in my songwriting hell / a buddy joked that every song would be about, well… / and while at first i would agree / it's ever so apparent that these songs are for me! / and my strange worldview / skewed from a derangement of the mind, as i’m sure you’ll find / so if by chance, you’re hearing this / i’d like to say i’m sorry and that you’re sorely missed / but you’re far better off without me holding your hand / and say hi to your buddy if you ever get the chance / she’s lucky to have a friend like you / as you are her, as i was you, it’s true, well wishes for you / but i’d say things are looking up / i can say once more with confidence that i’m in love / with somebody who knows me inside & out / yeah, i’ve learned to love myself, oh, without a doubt / la da-da da-da, la da-da da-da / la da-da da-da, la da-da da-da / la da-da da-da, la da-da da-da / la da-da da-da, la da-da da-da

total darkness - N/A

souljacker, pt. iii - pastel and frilly, inhumanely pretty / i asked myself “why” then i saw through your eyes and i knew / you are the light at the end of the tunnel / you are the cure to all of my troubles / you are the meaning, the only thing seeing me through / are you in possession of that cute black dress / and are all my dumb letters still ripe on your dresser as they were? / you are the light at the end of the tunnel / you are the cure to all of my troubles / you are the meaning, the only thing seeing me through / it’s you

as you should - take a look into the sky tonite / fireflies / don’t ask why / are you seeing what i see? / ain’t it sweet? / wherever you may be / i know that we’d talk a lot of shit for two lunatics / still i hope you’ll get along as u should / you’ll never guess what i found last week / in my attic / you’d be ecstatic / a little poem addressed to you from me / never sent / but it’s the thought that counts, i guess / reading thru the old letters it struck: we were both sorta cunts / still i know you’ll get along as u should / yeah i know you’ll get along as u should / oh i know you’ll get along / yeah i know that you’ll be strong / oh i know you’ll get along as u should

(some semblance of) resolution [instrumental] - 🔔

this moment (reprise) - now i don’t know just where you are / across the night sky’s shining stars / my life is looking pretty bleak / but that discounts these memories / an innate need to fantasize / about the wrongs i’ve yet to right / i look back on those "moments" / all those moments i had loved to spend with you / always wanted something more / and here you are outside my door / now i've got someone to die for / so what exactly am i waiting for? / the sweetest note i’ve ever seen / addressed to me and only me / four years since its first unseal / at least i know that we were real / and if i were to die tonight / nothing more than a small blight / a most fulfilling life i’ve lived / and all my thanks for this i owe to you  always wanted something more / and here you are outside my door / now i've got someone to die for / so what exactly am i waiting for? / always wanted something more / and here you are outside my door / now i've got someone to die for / so what exactly am i waiting for? / for just a fleeting snippet of my life / you sure did win the crowd / but the show is running out of time / so let’s go take our bows

theme from “happy friends” - whenever i am feeling blue / when things don’t go my way / i know my happy friends are there / to brighten up my day / i’ve got no place to call my own / she doesn’t wish to talk / but i’ve still got my happy friends / it’s always smile o’clock / the world is gonna end today / there’s nothing we can do / but join with our happy friends / and sing this happy tune

graveside duet - N/A

rocket - love / bleed in your own light / dream of your own life / i miss me / i miss everything i'll never be / and on and on / i torch my soul to show the world / that i am pure deep inside my heart, heart / no more lies / “is it that hard to be honest?” / a crown of horns / an image formed, deformed / the mark i've borne / a mark of scorn to you / consume my love devour my hate / it only powers my escape / the moon is out the stars invite / i think i'll leave tonite / soon i'll find myself alone / to relax and fade away / do you know what's coming [now/down]? / do you know i couldn't stay free? / yeah, oh / free! / i shall be free / i shall be free / i shall be free, free / free of those voices inside me / love / i shall be free

slowie - N/A

b.c. boogie - N/A

you were right - N/A

burn stuff - N/A

mama's boy - N/A

you killed my cat - N/A

commack motor inn - N/A

the power of friendship - N/A

welcome home bassboy! -  N/A