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eyes - i’ve been told that my voice can irritate / lyricism’s at best second-rate / i come off as obsessive and crazed / and not even in the cutesy way / but i’ve loved a psychotic amount / and it hurts but i’d like to make it count / cuz when you’re gone now far before your time / what more can i do than simply whine? / so before the final train departs / i’d like to show this world i’ve got / quite a lot / within my heart / so i wanna see if it’s alright / i wanna see if i’ll survive / through the night / i’ll really try / so why don’t we just close our eyes / to all the horror in our lives? / this world may cut you down to size / but you’re perfect in my mind / so won’cha run away with me? / so won’cha run away with me?

if at first you don’t succeed... - if you say that you’re leaving won’t you give me a reason before you go? / held together by stitches, i’ll take my dreams and my wishes, you’ll never know / may be my second stay here but as the end of the day nears i see the light / don’t’cha say that you miss me, when you’ve gone out and ditched me, it isn’t right / the world i know, the world has shown it doesn’t care for me / and if at first it just don’t work then try ‘til you succeed / ah, the fight isn’t worth it, i’ve been screwed from my birth, think i’m gonna crack / you can leave me your flowers, but you don’t have the power to bring me back / the world i know, the world has shown it doesn’t care for me / and if at first it just don’t work then try ‘til you succeed / you can guess the way i get when i am left alone / sitting still with fever chills, this place is my new home / as i lay down, still bleeding out, across the dirty floor / my parting sight, with my own eyes, you walking out the door, oh / if you know that i’m leaving won’t you give me a reason not to go? / held together by stitches, i took my dreams and my wishes, you’ll never know

this moment - i'm sure by now that you're asleep / as i lay thinking 'bout my week / it's looking relatively bleak / but that's discounting you + me / there's no need to apologize / you've done no wrong within my eyes / i get we've had our "moments" / but this moment i would love to spend with you / i always wanted something more / here you are outside the door / now i've got someone to live for / so what exactly are we waiting for? / sweetest letter, mi amor / wrapped up in your metaphors / i wish that you'd be more direct / but i'll take all that i can get / i'm overwhelmed so easily / unstable in the scheme of things / but you've taken the time to see / that i am just a human being / i always wanted something more / here you are outside the door / now i've got someone to live for / so what exactly are we waiting for? / i always wanted something more / here you are outside the door / now i've got someone to live for / so what exactly are we waiting for? / every waking moment of my life / i wanna spend with you / and you alone… / some will say attachment issues / but i think it's clear that i love you / and you alone! / la da-da da-da da-da / la da-da da-da da-da / la-da da-da da-da da-da / da da-da da-da da-da da-da, ah / (one, two, three, four)

remember me - time to leave this awful room and venture through this world / i've had ev'rything handed to me, too bad my hands were full / i never thought i'd get this far with all the shit i've seen / but now i stand here on my own with unaccomplished dreams / take a look at me / and tell me what you see / am i still a nobody / i've been told my forefather would dabble in the arts / he worked day in and day out 'til his tired ol' heart gave out / and as i roam the city streets it comes as quite the shock / that under all these layers of paint granddaddy left his mark / take a look at me, wow / and tell me what you see / am i still a nobody / won’cha give me reasons to believe, ooh / so if i’m struggling once again to get my points across / i’d like to be remembered as some contributing force / i’ve done fuck-all these fourteen years but that changes today / just take a look inside the books and you’ll see monkeybang / so how will you remember me? / so how will you remember me? / so how will you remember me? / so how will you remember me?

colon / right parenthesis [instrumental] - 👀❤️❤️🎀

nice to know you - been a prisoner of my own mind each passing year / now i could use a shoulder, to smother with my ugly tears / and i’d say that you could fit this mold / guess that i will always be your dear attention whore / would love to know what goes on in that pretty head of yours / or rather anybody’s but my own / nice to know you / love to show you / i’m not so shallow dear / can’t you read me? i’m so easy / well i’m far too shallow dear / you can call me morning wood, the way i stiffen up / and stumble over all my words, i’m on the verge of giving up / but i’m sure you’ll come around with time / fluctuating tempo of my heart is bound to kill / i may not make it thru the week but it’s all worth it for the thrill / and the sense of almost being alive / nice to know you / love to show you / i’m not so shallow dear / can’t you read me? i’m so easy / well i’m far too shallow dear / baby, sweetie / won’t you meet me? / somewhere less shallow dear, you, well / it’s far too shallow here / take a little inside joke and run it to the ground / then we’ll drag it on and on until they run us out of town / a small price to pay to hear your laugh / find the nearest razor, carve your name into my arm / so that you’ll be with me in a way no matter where you are / if they ask it’s just some weird birthmark, ah / nice to know you / love to show you / i’m not so shallow dear / can’t you read me? i’m so easy / well i’m far too shallow dear / baby, sweetie / won’t you meet me? / somewhere less shallow dear, you, well / it’s far too shallow here / you’re far too shallow dear, yes, you / i’m far too shallow dear for you / we’re all so shallow dear / but you, but you, but you, you…

i like u - gimmie life, gimmie love / tell me what you’re thinking of / sing to me of your delusions / i can never have enough / there’s no more sorrow, no more pain / all my worries down the drain 

funny everything has changed and yet it all still feels the same / tore me up and stole my heart / death can never do us part / won’cha take me out but not too fast / i just wanna let this last / cuz you’re all that i see and you’re all that i need and you’re all that i dream at night / at the end of day all my woes go away, oh, the moment i see you smile / let them scoff, let them laugh, they don’t know what they’re missing / oh i’ve got this funny feeling i like u / oh wake me up, drag me on / this world is ours and ours alone / we can stare down the monotony / as it all comes crashing down / take my hand, hold me tight / i say we leave this town tonight / oh just swear to me you won’t let go / we’ll kiss this dump goodbye… / tore me up and stole my heart / death can never do us part / won’cha take me out but not too fast / i just wanna let this last / cuz you’re all that i see and you’re all that i need and you’re all that i dream at night / at the end of day all my woes go away, oh, the moment i see you smile / let them scoff, let them laugh, they don’t know what they’re missing / oh i’ve got this funny feeling i like u / yeah i like u!

caroline - oh so there was this girl / who didn’t know she had an inside voice / and it seemed the whole world / did whatever they could to drown out the noise / sometimes it seems like she’s never around / i’ve got a clue as to where she’ll be found / caroline baby / always on the run / riding the night train / anywhere but home / she’s been dealt a bad hand / a monkey’s paw and some monkey rage / and it ain’t easy to stand / with the weight of the world running thru your veins / sometimes i feel like you’re leading me on / can’t say i’d mind if she wants to prove me wrong… / caroline baby / always on the run / riding the night train / anywhere but home / stay for a while / take in all the sights / i get that you’re hurting / but would it really hurt to get some peace of mind? / won’cha tell me something / won’cha give me a sign? / do you see something in me / or am i wasting your time? / love to get to know you / yeah i’d love to catch up / where the hell do we go from here? / i don’t know

waiting game - patiently waiting, my heart and soul aching / just when will that damn doorbell ring? / i’d love to hear all the things you hold dear / all the workings that make your world spin / you may not know it yet but i’m quite a lot like you / i’ve got a lot to say, there’s a lot i’ve yet to do / but you’re in your own world and i’m told that it takes two / so now i’m stuck playing life’s cruel waiting game / surely it’s too soon to say that i love you / a slow burn is all that i dream / but when you’re explaining your hyperfixations / the way that you glow and you beam, well… / you may not know it yet but i’m quite a lot like you / i’ve got a lot to say, there’s a lot i’ve yet to do / but you’re in your own world and i’m told that it takes two / so now i’m stuck playing life’s cruel waiting game / i’m never one to make the first move / don’t need to prove that your prenotions are true / so why don’t we just give it time / as we get on with our cruel lives / impatiently waiting, my heart and soul aching / just when will that damn doorbell ring? / ‘cuz i’d love to hear all the things you hold dear / all the workings that make your world spin / as you do mine

go to sleep - i must say, you’re looking pretty dead / why not squeeze a pillow under that sleepy little head? / your eyes have bags, you’re looking lost / you cannot form coherent thought / what’s this? (wow!) a way to make it all quit? / lemme say / why don’t you go to sleep? / i know, i know / it seems like such a snooze, just trust me please / why don’t you go to sleep? / i know, i know / i know i know, i know i know i know / i can’t lie, you’ve seen better days / now what if i told you that in 6 to 8 hours you can make it all go away? / a pillow soft, a blanket thick / that’s all you need to do the trick / but how? (i dunno!) listen closely now / when i say / why don’t you go to sleep? / i know, i know / it seems like such a snooze, just trust me please / why don’t you go to sleep? / i know, i know / i know i know, i know i know i know

(there is) nothing left to lose - i hear no evil in you and me / i hear no evil in you and me / now maybe this ain’t what it seems / still i hear no evil in you and me / i’m sure it’s clear by now / i’m sure word’s gotten ‘round / the way i’m feeling about you, oo-oo-ooo / how do you feel ‘bout this? / the signals, they’re all mixed / i’d love for you to drop a clue, oo-oo-ooo / so while there’s nothing much to gain from this / i’d say there’s nothing left to lose, oh / i see no evil in you and me / i see no evil in you and me / now maybe this ain’t what it seems / still i hear no evil in you, you and me… / the novelty’s all gone / joke’s gone on far too long / what is there more that we could do, oo-oo-ooo? / i like the things you wear / the dog bows in your hair / i’d like to be somebody too, oo-oo-ooo / so while there’s nothing much to gain from this / i’d say there’s nothing left to lose / oh, ohh, oh / i speak no evil of you and me / i speak no evil of you and me / now maybe this ain’t what it seems / still i speak no evil of you and me…

bassist jokes [instrumental] - 🐟🐶

heaven - all that i really wanna do / is watch the sun go down with you / nobody else can appreciate / their souls adorned with petty hate / i’m not giving up, no, i’m not one for settlin’ / especially knowin’ i’m just outside heaven / i’m not giving up, no, i’m not one for settlin’ / especially knowin’ i’m just outside heaven / look at my old schemes and you will find / they’ve all been prepared with you in mind / and just to show you how hard i’m trying / i’ve even got bassboy to show up on time / he usually doesn’t do that, y’know / not giving up, no, i’m not one for settlin’ / especially knowin’ i’m just outside heaven / not giving up, no, i’m not one for settlin’ / especially knowin’ i’m just outside heaven / not giving up, no, i’m not one for settlin’ / especially knowin’ i’m just outside…

<3 - everyone sucks / they all think i’m lame / nobody gets me / they just wanna get laid / they say that i’m stupid / they say that we’re freaks / they’ve called you some words that / i cannot repeat / today michael asked me / if you + i were a thing / i wasn’t sure how to answer / so let me know what you think / because we make a cute pair / at least according to bri / and while i may be biased / i’d have to say i agree / today zuri warned me / you’ve shown signs of bpd / that i oughta be cautious / and at times leave you be / and i’m no miracle worker / not aware of a cure / but i will do anything / to make life less of a chore / and with this rough year / it’s hard to blame you / for finding such comfort / in a dimly-lit room / but when you feel ready / to head on outside / i’ll be waiting right here / ready to stay by your side / be mine ‘til the end of time / then another fifteen minutes down the line / be mine ‘til the end of time / then another fifteen minutes down the line

we are going to beat you to death - do you mind if i find that i’m kind of inclined / to be loud for the crowd when i say that you’re such a tool / the band at your hand like a damn puppet stand / hiding behind us ‘cuz you know that she don’t want you / WE are going to beat YOU to DEATH (to DEATH) / WE are going to beat YOU to DEATH (to DEATH)

maybe i’d die - (one two three four five one two three / four five six seven one two three four) / she can’t make it to the gig, she says / the folk are visiting from out of the cave / the books are burning with the radios / her people aren’t into asian mind control / they’re all bugging her on how she’s been / of course she knows it doesn’t matter to them / “if they knew the way i live my life”, she says / “well maybe i’d—”  / “hm.. i feel like maybe i would—” / “hmm.” / she doesn’t hate ‘em, she tries not to complain / but maw and paw can be a real fuckin’ pain / the clocks are ticking and the times have changed / but that won’t stop ‘em from their primitive ways / her mama told her that her tights are for sluts / and dad says all the guys are looking to fuck / “should they ever see beyond my guise”, she says / “i feel like maybe i would—” / “i feel like i—probably like—” / “i think i’d just about—” / she stops herself. / (one two three four five one two three / four five six seven one two three four) / “if they knew i think that maybe i’d die.”

i got hit by a car - i got hit by a car / i got thrown pretty far / i lost my head almost / i painted the streets red with my blood / i think my legs are broken / my car is now very smokin' / i don't know anything else that rhymes with smokin' / i think i totaled my car / i think i took it too far / my name's babie sphinaje / yeah / yeah uh / yeah / yeah yeah uh / yeah yeah yuh / that's right / i hope i have insurance / but i don't / yeah / yeah / yeah / yuh / awesome / ??? / i need to go to the hospital now

a.o.n. - nothing / oh it’s all that you are / sorry little skull of yours ain’t worth nothing / yeah it’s all that you got / your darling holly left you and now you got nothing / you can lie all you want / but deep down you know you’re a whole bunch of nothing / you’re a shell of a man.. / oh you really couldn’t help yourself / and now you’ve got a special spot in hell / said i’d have it all / i got nothing / nothing to show...

daddy dearest - oh daddy dearest, won’t you listen to me please / the season’s changing and the same would go for me / i’ve got desires and all but you won’t let me be / anything other than your complacent dull baby / i’d presume it’s out of love / but soon you’ll be out of luck / i bet i’ll be out the door / by the time you realize: i’m not yours / oh daddy dearest, all i ask for is your ears / get what you’re feeling but you don’t get me, i fear / as everyone i know makes something of themselves / i’m left to rot away upon your highest shelf / i’d presume it’s out of love / but soon you’ll be out of luck / i bet i’ll be out the door / by the time you realize: i’m not yours

violet lights - what are they telling you / what are we coming to / all i ever wanted from you’s dead / tell me i’m paranoid / just wanna stop the noise / all i ever wanted was to / all i ever wanted was to / all i ever wanted was to breathe / and i wait and i wait and i wait and i wait and i wait / and i wait and i wait and i wait and i wait and i fall away / do what you gotta do / but don’cha hide it too / all i ever wanted from you’s gone / not lookin’ for a fight / but something isn’t right / all i ever wanted was to / all i ever wanted was to / all i ever wanted was to live / and i wait and i wait and i wait and i wait and i wait / and i wait and i wait and i wait and i wait and i wait / violet lights / illuminate your eyes / revealing all these lies / violet lights / illuminate your eyes / revealing all these lies / violent nights / your screams roll over mine / silencing my cries

bailey needs help! - i like the games that make me cry / the ones that remind me i’m real and alive / the fact that they could haunt me with one uncomfy scene / the fact that that could have been me / sometimes i want to make you cry / as to remind you that i’m real and alive / the fact that i could ruin you with one impulsive move / my only chance of getting through

misery (down, down, down) - now maybe i just fear too much / but you’ve been looking pretty rough / not sure what i can do, but i hope you know how much i care for you / better my ears than your arms / drowning in your misery / you could surely use some company / eradicate your stress, i swear to god that i won’t interject / cuz i don’t wanna drag you down, down, down / let me drown, drown, drown / so make a wish, i’m your shooting star / swear i’ll help you thru the nite / and should i crash, burn myself right out / well i guess i’ll see you on the other side / i’ve had enough / it all keeps adding up and up / i’ve been places wish i’d never been / and i’ve seen things no one should ever see / it drags me down / if i could die for you i would / to see you live the way you should / quit with the stoic act, y’know anyone can see right through the cracks / enough with secrets, just let it out, out, out / i won’t let you down, down, down / so make a wish on that shooting star / and squeeze my name between the lines / so when i crash, burn myself right out / well i guess i’ll see you on the other side

bone soup - i lost the war, i lost the fight / and yet i’m standing here alive / in everything but mind / don’t speak, don’t lie / don’t say it’s gonna be alright / ‘cuz i’ve seen otherwise / i know that you can’t stand the thought of replacing me / but if you listen up i swear you’ll be thanking me / walk me thru this world of hurt / is life a miracle or am i cursed? / i want off the ride / i got a lot, i got you / shouldn’t be feeling so blue / but who the hell am i to decide? / now i don’t want to leave you broken or stressed / but if you care you’ll set me free from this mess / of bone soup, bone soup / boney me and fleshy you / bone soup, we are, we are / bone soup, bone soup / some sick pile of your blood and screws / bone soup, we are, we are / dig me in and shut me out / six feet under’s what i’m talkin’ ‘bout / i’m unexposed at last / i lost the war, i lost the fight / and yet i’m standing here alive / but wait ‘til my next try / bone soup, bone soup / boney me and fleshy you / bone soup, we are, we are / bone soup, bone soup / some sick pile of your blood and screws / bone soup, we are, we are

reflect [instrumental] - 👁️👁️

y’know (bailey’s song) - i can’t help but find the reasons in your mind / i can’t help but see all you gave to me / there’s no need to tell me i can see it in your eyes / but it doesn’t hurt to let it out, it won’t kill you to try / woah oh oh, oh / y’know y’know you’re beautiful you sweet and tortured soul / there’s more than you would ever think beneath your scars and bows / y’know y’know you’re wonderful and you deserve it all / i’m here for you to lean on if you need some place to fall / do you still remember those days when we first met? / a buncha dopes with chalk in hand and nothing to regret / i take a look into your eyes and i still see her there / so if you can’t fight for yourself no more at least do it for her / please? / y’know y’know you’re beautiful you sweet and tortured soul / there’s more than you would ever think beneath your scars and bows / y’know y’know you’re wonderful and you deserve it all / i’m here for you to lean on if you need some place to fall / y’know y’know you’re beautiful you sweet and tortured soul / there’s more than you would ever think beneath your scars and bows / y’know y’know you’re wonderful and you deserve it all / i’m here for you to lean on if you need some place to fall / y’know, oh-oh, luv / y’know, oh-oh, no / y’know y’know you’re wonderful and you deserve it all / i’m here for you to lean on if you need some place to fall <3

bleed - you give me reason in a world i’ve come to dread / still seems a blob of grey but there’s a little swatch of red / that pretty voice of yours is drowning out the sound / of the screams. of the dead. and the tired / should the sky come crashing down i can’t say i’d mind / should the earth shatter i’d still say today’s alright / i hate to say, it’s so cliché, but there’s no place i’d rather be / should the life drain from my eyes i think i’ll be fine / ooh oh oh i’m so divided / would you like me if i shut my mouth? / believe me when i say i’m lucky to be yours / world’s still a pile of shit but at least it ain’t a bore / i was so numb to life but now i’ve got the energy / to fake it. we’ll make it. or try. right? / should the sky come crashing down i can’t say i’d mind / should the earth shatter i’d still say today’s alright / i hate to say, it’s so cliché, but there’s no place i’d rather be / should the life drain from my eyes i think i’ll be fine / with you

young dumb love - drive, drive, drive my truck / pickin’ up some beer / truckity, truckity, truckity, truckity / fuckin’ hate my wife / the day is new, and that’s my cue / to fin’ly spend some time with you / we’ve worked right through our age-old blues / why don’t we treat ourselves this noon / the feels are high, the scope is wide / it’s ours to take within my mind / now you and i can spend some time / on conquering that fear of heights / well, getting by day to day, it burns, it burns / well, getting by day to day, it burns, it burns / so i get you, and you get me / at least as far as i can see / and finally, there seems to be / someone with whom i can agree / so you’ve got dreams, of bigger things / and i know damn well you can sing / so why don’t we, oh pretty please / go work on our new masterpiece / well, getting by day to day, it burns, it burns / well, getting by day to day, it burns, it burns / now i don’t know if you’re thinking what i’m thinking / with this young dumb love i feel i’m really livin’ / forget the rise, forget the fall / forget logicistics of it all / my mouth is shut, my eyes are wide / now why don’t we just go enjoy the ride / the day is old, so i’ve been told / the weather grows ever so cold / it takes its toll, it hurts my soul / but that’s just life, well i suppose / elizabeth, riddle me this / can you picture a world in which / we make it there, the people care / our names are shining in times square / well, getting by day to day, it burns, it burns / well, getting by day to day, it burns, it burns / now i don’t know if you’re thinking what i’m thinking / with this young dumb love i feel i’m really livin’ / forget the rise, forget the fall / forget logicistics of it all / my mouth is shut, my eyes are wide / now why don’t we just go enjoy the ride / why don’t we just go enjoy the ride, hey-hey

my darlin’ vocaloid girl from hell - "well if that makes me emo then i guess i’m emo" / organized with malice in their hearts / to drain our lives of what sets us apart / they’ll knock us down, they’ll sell us out / the way they see it we’re not well / well we’re the shit and you are it / my darlin’ vocaloid girl from hell  and so i’ve heard that there’s a world out there beyond this town / i’d bet far less intent on bashing and breaking us down / i hear the last train’s leaving now / move to the tune of my heart’s final beats / away to a place where their hatred can’t reach / over our shoulders we’ll wish them farewell / and dance as the town closes in on itself / not your fault this town is so silly / our beauties are their monstrosities / i know you’ll try ‘n’ say otherwise / facial dysmorphia, you can’t tell / but i’m in awe, you’re without flaw / my darlin’ vocaloid girl from hell / before you know i’ll feel at home within my own body / we’ll be dressed up, the kind of stuff you only see in dreams / so won’cha be my demiqueen? / move to the tune of my heart’s final beats / away to a place where their hatred can’t reach / over our shoulders we’ll wish them farewell / and dance as the town closes in on itself / move to the tune of my heart’s final beats / away to a place where their hatred can’t reach / over our shoulders we’ll wish them farewell / and dance as the town closes in on itself / "go melvin!" / "bassboy!" / "banga drumbo!"

new year’s eve - want you to listen / get thru to your head / don’t want you believin’ / a thing that i've said / i’m really quite awful / a league of my own / it's best to accept that / you're better alone / you say you love me / do you even know me / why would you trust me / an ugly mistake / want you to listen / get thru to your head / don’t want you believin’ / a thing that i've said / i’m really quite awful / a league of my own / it's best to accept that / you're better alone / you say you love me / do you even know me / why would you trust me / an ugly mistake / get out of my conscience / you're being too loud / just spare me one minute / i'll sort this mess out / out…

new year’s day [instrumental] - 👍👍🌸🌸🎊🎊🎉🎉

reality [acoustic] - another day of living free / another day of harsh realities / fucked up and driven up the wall / feel like we’ve been here before / oh can’t you tell that nothing’s gonna change / it’s you and me against ourselves, it’s hell / you don’t know what goes around in my head / can’t you tell that we’d be better off dead? / it’s all inside of us there’s nowhere to hide / but i could bear the pain with you by my side / born to die and left to bleed / knock the living shit right out of me / i’m sure i’ll heal up in time / the truth is out there plain to see / reality ain’t waiting up for you / so make the most of what you lack / you don’t know what goes around in my head / can’t you tell that we’d be better off dead? / it’s all inside of us there’s nowhere to hide / but i could bear the pain with you by my side / can you hear me now? / can you hear me loud? / oh you don’t know what goes around in my head / can’t you tell that we’d be better off dead? / it’s all inside of us there’s nowhere to hide / but i could bear the pain with you by my side

all amped up - oh yeah! / haven’t heard from her in three days, lord knows why / wanted something easy, now i just wanna die / she’s gonna take my hand and take me to the grave / only course of action here is to fly away / haven’t heard from her in weeks, now i know why / i saw her out at northport, cuddling with some new guy / she takes his hand and says she’s found her other half / and in these troubled times, there’s really nothing i can do but laugh / well hardy har har!

smartfella - all that you want is all that you’ve gotten / do what you want, all is forgotten / “everything’s fine” as your life fades away / “everything’s great” as it all turns to grey / wish i could be as smart a fella as you / wish i could be as smart a fella as you / all that you want is all that you’ve gotten / keep up the act til it goes rotten / “everything’s fine” as your life fades away / “everything’s perfect” like you always say / wish i could be as smart a fella as you / wish i could be as smart a fella as you / i made my mistakes / yeah i made my mistakes, i have my regrets / i couldn’t move on, i couldn’t go back / i wanted to live but nothing like this, oh nothing like this / live with your regrets / stabbing at your chest / eating at your flesh until the end / i’m really quite impressed / i never woulda guessed / that i could be as smart a fella as you / smart a fella as you / smart a fella as you / smart a fella as you / all that you got is all that i wanted / how do you live feeling so haunted / “everything’s fine” as your life fades away / “everything’s great” when it all goes your way / wish i could be as smart a fella as you / wish i could be as smart a fella as you / wish i could be as smart a fella as you / wish i could be as smart a fella as you / smart a fella as you / smart a fella as you / smart a fella as you, you, you, you, YOU / i’m really quite impressed / i never woulda guessed / that i could be as smart a fella as you / smart a fella as you / smart a fella as you

fartsmella - oh no where are you / oh no i need you / oh no where could you be / gotta make you quit gotta make you quit / gotta make you stop this same ol shit / happy now? / fartsmella! / oh i know what you want / and it’s all that you got / but you want more and more and more from me / oh no where are you / oh no i need you / oh no i bleed for you / gotta shut you up gotta shut you up / gotta keep that trap of yours zipped shut / cut it out / fartsmella! / oh i know what you want / and it’s all that you got / but you want more and more and more and more from me / can’t you see? / are you better? / feeling better? / hope that this’ll make your day / are you better? / feeling better? better? better? better? woah / fartsmella! / oh i know what you want / and it’s all that you got / but you want more and more and more and more and more…

heteronormativity - secluded, deluded / if you think that i’m gonna stay /  you reject, no respect / for the shit i take from all your dumb friends every day / a walk-thru, in my shoes / i’m sure would send you to an early grave / oh baby, you’re crazy / if you think that i’m gonna stay / just cuz someone said it had to be this way / you reek of heteronormativity and it shows / this friendship went to shit / cuz freaks like you just want the benefits / oh baby, you’re crazy / if you think that i’m gonna stay / just cuz someone said it had to be this way / you reek of heteronormativity and it shows / not a chance that i’m gonna stay / just cuz you were brought up to believe that way / you reek of heteronormativity and it shows / so if you think that i’m gonna stay / just cuz someone said it had to be this way / you reek of heteronormativity and it shows / not a chance that i’m gonna stay / just cuz you were brought up to believe that way / you reek of heteronormativity and it shows

2014 - you say i’m helpless and you’re not wrong / you say you’re happy but still you don’t belong / i hear your reasons, i see your mood / and yet it’s killing me, just what’s a boy to do / but say hey? / think you’re a little bit crazy / think you’re a little insane / and that’s all right / i say hey / think you’re a little deranged / think you’re a little insane / and i don’t mind / you say i’m helpless when you’re away / i can’t refute this so baby won’t you stay? / thanks for the memories, thanks for your time / but i’ve gotta go now, somewhere you draw the line / sayin’ hey / think i’m a little bit crazy / think i’m a little insane / that’s all right / i said hey / think i’m a little bit crazy / think i’m a little deranged / hope you won’t mind, ah-hoh / sayin’ hey / think you’re a little bit crazy / think we’re a little insane / that’s all right / i said hey / think we’re a little insane / think we’re a little deranged / hope you won’t mind, ah-hoh / ah-hoh / oh, hoh-oh / ah-hoh / (that bass note was totally flat.)

well what are you going to do about it? - "well…" /  "what are you gonna do about it?" / "then learn how to handle your emotions" / "you can't sit there like a duck waiting for your emotions to strike you down" / "i know i probably sound harsh but the truth is I'm really fucking tired of people not even trying and giving up when they have felt only a fraction of the shit i have to deal with daily and if i can live through it and learn how to cope then others can too" / "you need to learn what makes you feel like that and make it stop and figure out how to deal with it you can't hide from your emotions forever" / "well to be honest idk how to help with how to handle that its a job for you to figure out really i know you can do it even if it will take a while" / "to be honest i dont even know what you see in me even when i act like this"

o.o.t. interlude [instrumental] - 🎹

out of tune - here and there and back to where we were before we cared / vicious cycle of our apathies / cursed and blessed and second guessing everything i know / cuz it feels so right / yeah it feels so right / sun is rising on a new you and a new worldview / never know the mood i’ll find you in / leave me bleating screaming weeping teeming with false hope / cuz it feels so right / yeah it feels so right / so if this sounds out of tune to you or not quite your style / then maybe you and i have never been quite right / but if you’re down for a gamble or a roll of the dice / i say we give it one more shot / live a life of pain and strife and mediocrity / bounded by our vows and phony love / down and out and wondering out loud where did we go wrong? / cuz this just ain’t right. yeah this just ain’t right / so if this sounds out of tune to you or not quite your style / then maybe you and me we weren’t meant to be / but if you’re down for a gamble or a roll of the dice / i say we give it one more… / shot in the dark i think i’ll take / can’t tell when i’m gonna break / meet me at hot topic tonite / before i have had enough of life

circles - not getting anywhere no matter what we try / it's plain to see we're not so well / it's great to have someone that makes you feel alive / but when that life's a living hell / god i still love you but i gotta love myself / and as it stands we're going round / in circles / so i've been told that good things come to those who wait / too bad my patience is running thin / the world’s collapsing now, we’re bound to suffocate / there really ain’t no way to win / i'm hoping one day we can fin'ly work this out / look on back and share a laugh / but even if we do / i'll always have my doubts / seems to me we just go round / in circles / in circles / hey won’t you break the cycle and let me out? / won’t you break the cycle and let me out

your plaything - it’s back again, don’t know why and don’t know when / this torture’s gonna end / so who the hell has got me on these strings? / the trail leads right back to you / all this tragedy, trauma caught on tape / i could use a fucking break / words just fade away, flicker out in time / but i hope you’ll take this into mind, mind / not sure what i is saw in you / that gives me hope, that maybe you can still break thru / you spend your days waiting around / like a duck, you’re begging to be struck right down / you turned me into this monstrosity / still finding out, what’s from you and what was me / feeling like a work of art / the way you stare, the way you watch me paint my arms / you’re always saying that you want the best / well if you meant it then you’d give it a rest! / awww you wouldn’t change a thing? / well that’s too bad, my head stings!! / it’s back again, don’t know why and don’t know when / this torture’s gonna end / so who the hell has got me on these strings? / the trail leads right back to you / all this tragedy, trauma caught on tape / i could use a fucking break / words just fade away, flicker out in time / but i hope you’ll take this into mind, your mind / whatever there is left of your mind / not sure when you’re gonna explode / but i sure hope i won’t be there to feel the blow

throwaway - you make love feel like such a chore / you leave me wanting so much more / i take it this won’t last / you’re something of the past / oh, oh, oh, no no no / i think you know, i think you know, i think you know, oh / oh, oh, oh, no no no / by now you know, by now you know, by now you know, oh / you make love feel like such a chore / don’t even try, you just bore / i take it this won’t last / get your head out your ass / oh, oh, oh, no no no / i think you know, i think you know, i think you know, oh / oh, oh, oh, no no no / by now you know, by now you know, by now you know, oh / i cannot fathom us getting ‘round the bend / each conversation we are inching towards the end / i hope you’ve come to know how much i cherish you / the captain goes down with his ship so… toodle-oo

daisy - bailey / we used to pour our hearts out daily / now it’s quite the contrary / i’m greeted by her empty stare-y / i’m losing her, i’m losing her so bad / and you’re my last chance to be had / swear that this ain’t just a fad / won’t you please / hear my plea? / daisy / i think i’m going crazy / tell me she and i will be alright / woo me / show me all the beauty / in the world, however it may seem / let the harsh words flow-ee / i’d bet if anyone would know-ee / how am i supposed to show-ee / i couldn’t stand to see her go-ee / you’re reading me, you’re reading me so well / am i bound straight for hell? / i’d wager that you could tell / won’t you please / notice me? / daisy / i think i’m going crazy / tell me she and i will be alright / woo me / show me all the beauty / in the world, however it may seem / in the world, however it may seem / in the world, however it may seem, yeah, yeah!

murder me - happy and healthy / and everything that i coulda been / had i left this well enough alone / before i went ahead and sold my soul / baby don’t be intimidated / it’s just this mess that you’ve created / oh i really hate to say / i seen it coming your way, i seen it coming your way / find yourself gathering good hell / don’cha yearn for the chance to be free? / don’cha think that it’s real plain to see? / that you’re murdering me / mayhaps within that first degree / i mean it’s real plain to see / the way you’re murdering me / the way you’re aching to see me bleed / will you ever see the light?

huh-why-ee [instrumental] - 🧽

breathe - hey i don't know / if you've heard or you've been told / but the act is getting old / give it up / sure you can see / you can do just as you please / but the clocks won't stop for me / as for you… / fuck you / once long ago / this wide world was all my own / then i handed off the robe / and the crown / now i’m your clown / maybe something further down / at least jesters can amuse / whereas i… / i hear your call on empty streets / i've no idea what this all means / i see your way i see your will / and god i swear if looks could kill i'm dead / let me breathe / let me see all i can see oh please let me breathe / let me breathe / let me be all i can be all i can be / let me breathe / hey i don't know / if you've heard or you've been told / but the act is getting old / give it up / sure you can see / you can do just as you please / but the clocks won't stop for me / as for you… / i hear your call on empty streets / i've no idea what this all means / i see your way i see your will / and god i swear if looks could kill / you’d do me six feet under oh i'm dead / let me breathe let me see all i can see oh please let me breathe / let me breathe / let me be all i can be all i can be / let me breathe... / oh i beg / let me breathe / let me see all i can see oh please let me breathe / let me breathe / let me be all i can be all i can be / let me breathe... 

for you - i hope this finds you well /as with the many songs before / and surely many yet to write / it may be hard to tell / but you’re the reason i wake up / you’re the reason i still try / and if this is goodbye / it hurts like hell but i swear that i won’t cry / i did it all for you / this isn’t working out / it only hurts the both of us / i’ve become a nervous wreck / i think we need some time apart / a brief moment of silence / oh a moment to reflect / i had a dream last night / i stood up at your casket / and i said my last goodbyes / i cannot live this life / so this is where i put my foot down / this is where i draw the line / so if this is goodbye / it hurts like hell but i swear that i won’t cry / i did it all for you

the world is such a pretty place (when you’re not screaming in my ear) - when you left me / you emotionally wrecked me / but looking back i’m happy that we’re through / you made me feel /  that i was doing evil / the only evil that i’ve done was you / lots to see, so much to hear / aside from your whining & tears / i’ve come to this conclusion, my consensus is quite clear / the world is such a pretty place when you’re not screaming in my ear / yeah-uh, the world is such a pretty place when you’re not screaming in my ear

silence. (for what it’s worth) - silence / nothing left to hear / nothing left to say / no-one left to wish away / chances / opportunities / open up to me / to be what i could never be / take a look / in the rearview mirror / the wreckage burns / but it’s not my problem anymore / silence / i finally hear the storm / i finally hear the rain / i finally hear the hurricane / spinning / spinning round my head / spinning round my mind / in the space you’ve left behind / take a look / at the road ahead / minefield / i’m as good as dead / silence / need something to hear / need something to say / i need someone to save the day / bibi / save me from myself / save me from the noise / or i guess the lack thereof / for what it’s worth / i would hate me too / for what it’s worth / you were right, ah / na na na na na na la ha-lah / la la la la la da da da, i’m all alone

lost in transmission [instrumental] - <(0_0<) <(0_0)> (>0_0)>

sound of my heart - my blood boils at the mere sound of your voice / i’m only nice because i haven’t got a choice / can we just call this quits? i’d love to find some joy / and some fulfillment in the way you never tried / i’ve got my wants and needs that you can’t satisfy / just get the fuck away and stay out of my life / i told you over and over and over and over / and over and over and over and over again / looked in the mirror and now i finally see / all the potential that you’ve sucked right outta me / had i not wasted time just think where i could be / my only memories with you are much abhorred / just take the photographs, i won’t need them no more / the kindest thing i’ll say is that you were a bore / i told you over and over and over and over / and over and over and over and over / and over and over and over and over / and over and over and over and over again / sound of my heart says i want out / sound of my heart says i want out

bittersweetie - so do you think that we could try? / if not right now then maybe in some other life / we barely made it out before / but should we just put in the effort we could be forevermore / wait! baby / wait! don’t leave / words can’t explain how much i need to hear you talk / i cannot live this life just waiting for your call / that last go got pretty rough / and i can’t blame you if you feel you’ve had enough / we’d never try and talk it out / we’d just bottle up our feelings ‘til they burst right out our mouths / i’ve never been the best with words / if you’ve listened to these songs i’m sure you’ve heard / but you always seemed to kinda care / and a little bit of me believes that bit of you’s still there / wait! you 🫵/ wait! don’t leave / i cannot give to you the things i’ve yet to find / but i can take the time and cast a better me to life / you swore you’d stand by me and help me thru it all -/ that offer’s sounding nice, bibi i’m begging you, please call / please call / please call / please call

harsh reality - another night to struggle through / another night of putting up with you / i’d say i’m bound to blow my fuse, soon / taken away all my friends / more alone now than i’ve ever been / it’s only me, myself, and i, oh why? / you’re predictable and shallow at best / why say “we”? don’t drag me into this mess / your sick pleasures bring me nothing but pain / your reality is one and the same / we’re still young, we’ve got some time / waste yours but stay away from mine / i’m making something of this life / the truth is out there, plain to see / i’m tired of your company / enjoy this time before i leave, i’m free / i can read your every thought that you have / you can jump but i’m fine right where i stand / finally got my life under control / got no choice but to put this call on hold / you’re predictable and shallow at best / why say “we”? don’t drag me into this mess / your sick pleasures bring me nothing but pain / your reality is one and the same

this is a song called “finger” - woo! / flipper, finger, faster than lightning / world of wonder, i wonder how you sleep / you know i’m a spiteful little bitch / i know one way i can scratch this itch / you hurt me more than you know / and just to remind you that you fucking blow / no time for words, i’ll just flip you the bird / and as you slip away i’ll get on with my day

die - you sick fuck / don’t ever come back / screwed me up / but that didn’t matter / all too much / because you’re still after / your sweet luv / is that why you’re running / that why you’re running / that why you’re running ‘round? / cuz that’s why i’m leaving / that’s why i’m leaving / that’s why i’m leaving town / think y’know / everything in my / head because / you see right thru me / like i’m slow / sorry but that ain’t / how it goes / but once i get going / once i get going / once i get going again / your little dream is / your little dream is / your little dream is dead / so when you’re living on the streets / don’t come crawling back to me / we’re past the age of sympathies / i’m doing better no thanks to you / find someone else’s life to ruin / just promise me you won’t visit soon / ‘cuz i am freeeeee / now i’m wondering why i’d have ever given you the light of day / given you the light of day / ohh, ugly, selfish, unemployed, you’re never gonna take the blame / you’re never gonna take the blame / so when you’re living on the streets / don’t come crawling back to me / we’re past the age of sympathies / i’m doing better no thanks to you / find someone else’s life to ruin / just promise me you won’t visit soon / ‘cuz i am freeeeee

immature - please don’t / break my heart / please don’t / break my heart / i’m too / sensitive / immature / not all there / baby / what more can i do? / baby / what more can i tell you? / baby / what more can i do? / baby / what more can i tell you? / lie to me / try to see / i can’t be / saved

creep - i was hoping that by now i’d get thru to you / but you’re denser than i thought and my patience is thru / thought that this was all done but here we are / for a while there’s been something i’ve been wanting to say / while the others only pity you i feel hate / drownin’ in your ego drownin’ in your ego / i can’t even see you no more / you little rodent, you waste of time / you are my thirteenth reason why / you got the money, you got the girl / maybe one day you’ll get what you deserve / i was hoping you’d get somewhere with your life / swear i saw you take the keys, put the thing in drive / guess i missed the part where the engine explodes / so you think you’ll get away with the shit you pull  / well lemme tell you buddy karma’s coming for you / drownin’ in your ego drownin’ in your ego / i can’t even see you no more / you little shitter, you waste of time / you are my thirteenth reason why / you got the money, you got the girl / maybe one day you’ll get what you deserve / i was hoping that by now i’d get thru to you / but you’re denser than i thought and my patience is thru / thought that this was all done but here we are / for a while there’s been something i’ve been wanting to say / while the others only pity you i feel hate / drownin’ in your ego drownin’ in your ego / i can’t even see you no more / you little rodent, you waste of time / you are my thirteenth reason why / you got the money, you got the girl / maybe one day you’ll get what you deserve / mama says you’re a creep / mama says her boy’s a creep

heaven [full band] - all i really wanna do / is spend just one more day with you / i’ll admit i was hoping that we’d last til the end / but i haven’t changed and now you’re on the mend / not giving up, no, i’m not one for settlin’ / especially knowin’ i’m so far from heaven / not giving up, no, i’m not one for settlin’ / especially knowin’ i’m so far from heaven / you’ve got the world in the palm of your hand / all i’ve got is memories and this shitty band / can’t you just meet in the middle with me / so i can die happy and you can be free / from having to put up with me. / not giving up, no, i’m not one for settlin’ / especially knowin’ i’m so far from heaven / not giving up, no, i’m not one for settlin’ / especially knowin’ i’m so far from heaven / not giving up, no, i’m not one for settlin’ / especially knowin’ i’m so far from heaven / not giving up, no, i’m not one for settlin’ / especially knowin’ i’m so far from heaven / this key change makes no sense / but please tell me one thing that’s happened in the past three years that’s made any sense, agh

tear your heart out - transcription W.I.P.

commack lover - i’m back to square one / dog days have begun / i’ll take back this town / you can’t drag me down / i’ve got a lot to learn, i’ve got a lot to see / i’ve got the time to learn what makes me me / and now i’ve come to find that there’s a world outside / the curtain’s dropped, no longer am i blind / i’ve got a lot to learn, i’ve got a lot to see / i’ve got the time to learn what makes me me / and now i’ve come to find that there’s a world outside / the curtain’s dropped, no longer am i blind / wonder in my eyes / you watched as it died / i thought the world of you / i guess i spoke too soon / you’re nowhere to be found / and yet it all keeps spinnin’ round, yet it all keeps spinnin’ round / i’ve got a lot to learn, i’ve got a lot to see / i’ve got the time to learn what makes me me / and now i’ve come to find that there’s a world outside / the curtain’s dropped, no longer am i blind / i’ve got a lot to learn, i’ve got a lot to see / i’ve got the time to learn what makes me me / and now i’ve come to find that there’s a world outside / the curtain’s dropped, no longer am i blind / wonder in my eyes / you watched as it died / but to my surprise / once again alive, alive, alive! / i really should have known / i really should have known

dog days - hoo-hoo-hoo-hoo-hoo-hoo-hoo-hoo / ding-ding-ding-ding-ding-ding-ding-ding

bassdog - (band banter) / “wait, jake, play that again” /  the early bird gets the worm / the early bird gets the worm  / you grab him by the neck and you watch him squirm / the early bird gets the worm / the cat’s been let out the bag / the cat’s been let out the bag / just about brainless, he zigs and he zags / the cat’s been let out the bag / don’t you leave me stranded in the deep / oh run away yeah you little bassdog / don’t you leave me drowning out at sea / oh run away yeah you little bassdog / go run away yeah you little bassdog / why don’t you run away yeah you little bassdog, oh / there’s plenty more fish in the sea / there’s plenty more fish in the sea / swimming around in my feces and pee / there’s plenty more fish in the sea / the dog days have begun / the dog days have begun / the weatherman may tell you that spring has sprung / but the dog days have begun / don’t you leave me stranded in the deep / oh run away yeah you little bassdog / don’t you leave me drowning out at sea / oh run away yeah you little bassdog / go run away yeah you little bassdog / why don’t you run away yeah you little bassdog / don’t you run away yeah you little bassdog, oh

loved & alive - i sure do feel stupid, i sure do feel dumb / you warned me time & time again, i just wanted some fun / i appreciate your refraining from rubbing it in my face / if everybody had your decency the world’d be a better place / i feel loved & alive… / i don’t know where i’m going, i don’t know what what to do / but i can say i know now to stay away— from you-know-who / promised me a better future, promised me a better life / little did i know the ones who really cared were right here by my side / i feel loved & alive / now that a certain someone’s out of my life / i feel loved & alive / now that a certain someone’s out of my life / “you’re on your own, kid”

droney - never did i think that you’d be the one to kill me / every indecision just another attempt to get at me / all your little lies do nothing at all to deceive me / do what you want not like anybody’s gonna believe me / is it that hard to listen? / we can take it all / take the world / in our hands / really shoulda known that you weren’t gonna let me go gently / promises are broken and the last shred of hope has left me left me here / shoulda seen this coming but i guess i couldn’t help but believe it / maybe i’ll know better the next time you tell me you love me dear / is it that hard to listen? / we can take it all / take the world / in our hands

weinercat - weinercat / weinercat / can you tell me why? / can you tell me why? / cuz you know that i’d do anything for you / weinercat / weinercat / you are all that’s right / you are all that’s right / and you know that i’d do anything for you / all in all it all revolves around you / all in all it all revolves around you / weinercat / weinercat / i can see the light / i can see the light / but i know that you’d do anything for me / weinercat / weinercat / can you tell me why? / can you tell me why? / because i thought that you’d do anything for me / all in all it all revolves around you / all in all it all revolves around you / all in all it all revolves around you / all in all it all revolves around you 

last song - today i feel that nothing's gone right / the sun has set yet something still shines / you're gone, moved on, still ringing inside / ditched the scene as quickly as you came into my life / you don't owe me anything i just wanna be free / you can't seem to recognize what you mean to me / one last song to be sung / one less heart to be strung / if this is what you want / then this is what you'll get, i bid farewell / so now i'm scared i'm tired i'm cold / my calls gone out unanswered unknown / i've tried to brave this winter alone / but it's hard to move on forward when you've got my heart on hold / you don't owe me anything i just wanna be free / you can't seem to recognize what you mean to me / don’t you tell me otherwise you're making me unreal / not that hard to understand i just can't stand to feel / one last song to be sung / one less heart to be strung / if this is what you want / then this is what you'll get. i bid farewell 

i want to scream / monkey see, monkey do - how can you just walk on by / as if we never met / something’s changed within your eyes / i’m not quite sure what yet / if i meant as much to you / as you swore and pled / you'd be shouting from the roof / just beside the ledge / always doesn’t always mean always like you always said to me / always wanted something more, now i only want to scream / was i just a joke to you? / a novelty at best? / words defy me as you have.. / monkey see, monkey do, monkey has it out for you / monkey see, monkey do, monkey has it out for you / piss break of doom and despair / always know you’ll be right there / memories come flooding in / bleed them straight out thru my skin / piss break of doom and despair / always know you’ll be right there / memories come flooding in / bleed them straight out thru my skin / monkey see, monkey do, monkey has it out for you / monkey see, monkey do, monkey has it out for you / always doesn’t always mean always like you always said to me / always wanted something more, now i only want to scream / was i just a joke to you? / a novelty at best? / words defy me as you have / i’ll put my voice to rest

pity - i’m not so sure quite how to put this / in a manner that you’ll understand / how can you be just so pathetic? / why did i let you take my hand? / secret’s out / no good route / i can’t help / rot in hell / you were the best of a bad situation / i don’t owe you any explanation / i pity the fool who bows down to you / you were the best of a bad situation / i don’t owe you any explanation / i pity the fool who bows down to you / i saw you as a baby on my doorstep / helpless, dumb, and left for dead / now i see that you’re just plain ol’ stupid / buying into things i never said / smiley face / doubts erased / uncomfy / leave me be / you were the best of a bad situation / i don’t owe you any explanation / i pity the fool who bows down to you / you were the best of a bad situation / i don’t owe you any explanation / i pity the fool who bows down to you / what’s to say? / separate ways / jealous bitch / won’t be missed

lullabye - remember the notes we’d pass / teacher made you step out of the class / remember the jokes that we had / the others thought we had gone mad / forget me / forget me not / i don’t mind, just live your life / i love you all <3

not in the mood [instrumental] - transcription W.I.P.

sirens - say goodbye to me sweetie / say goodbye to me dear / let our eyes meet one last time tonite, tonite / i don’t mean to scare you / but this could be the end, oh / what is there left for me to do? / sirens scream / someone bleeds / and all i can think about is you / is it fate? / say hello to me sweetie / say hello to me dear / give me a sign that you’re still here / know you don’t mean to scare me / but could this be the end? oh / just why should i believe in you? / sirens scream / someone bleeds / and all i can think about is you / is it fate? / i can’t stand the noise / i can’t stand the noise / and i looked into  the sky last night / all i saw was a pretty blonde / so why won’t you just tell me what’s going on?

pisser - just a simple question baby / it’s just a simple question baby / twist my words, oh, twist my words / i’d like a simple answer baby / i’d like a simple answer baby / help me out, oh, won’t you please? / it’s the last ride home / take your last shot now / won’cha please promise me this? / now just spare your pretty wrists / so i can sleep tonight / such an odd connection baby / such an odd connection baby / severed and yet going strong / miscommunications baby / miscommunications baby / are sure to be the death of me / it’s the last ride home / take your last shot now / won’cha please promise me this? / now just spare your pretty wrists / so i can sleep tonight / it’s the last ride home / take your last shot now / won’cha please promise me this? / now just spare your pretty wrists / so i can sleep tonight / i can’t live with you, i can’t live without you / there’s something irresistable-ish about you / i’ll grin and bear it ‘cuz these nights are long / i hope that something better comes along..

the great displeasure of meeting you - i ask the simplest task and yet you still can’t be assed / to listen to anything but the sound of your own gross voice / thought i’d give you a chance, in spite the rambles and rants / it grows apparent that i’ve made the wrong choice / well now you’re one to talk, you better watch where you walk / you’re gonna trip on your own damn words / seems you’re falling behind, well can’t you make up your mind? / because you’re never gettin’ nowhere like this / all in your control / swear they’ll never know / you! knew! fucker / you! knew! runt / your! fault! sucker / your! fault! cunt / hate to be the bearer of bad news but this gig is thru / you’ve got no choice but to look for your next victim soon / i had a word with your girl, she’s sick of all your control / seems to me that you’ll be rotting alone / i’ll sure you’ll find someone new, somebody else to abuse / maybe you’ll even find someone as awful as you / but that’s a pretty high bar to reach, don’cha think? / i’m sure that it must stink / swear they’ll never know / all in your control / you! knew! fucker / you! knew! runt / your! fault! sucker / your! fault! cunt / you! knew! fucker / you! knew! runt / your! fault! sucker / your! fault! cunt

still fighting - strung out on my ego / and sleepless sleeping pills / i’m told that i should hate you / or harbor some ill will / but we both know that i’m the one to blame / so i’m still fighting / for you / yeah i’m still fighting / for you / what’s there left to say / that hasn’t yet been said / with you i see my future / without you, good as dead / and i could really use a happy end / so i’m still fighting / for you / yeah i’m still fighting / for you / so i’ve heard you’ve heard i’ve heard / you never cared too much / my sick desire to love someone / your need for human touch / but in my heart i know that we were real / so i’m still fighting / for you / yeah i’m still fighting / for you

sixteen - sixteen wasted years gone past / sixteen wasted years gone in a flash / you never know just how time kicks your ass / victim of conformity / victim of your own cruel self esteem / you’ve dug yourself a hole that’s far too deep / and still i’m not quite sure just where i stand / and still i’m not quite sure just who i am / but i’m tired of waiting, tired of hating / tired of standing around / no more weeping, no more sleeping / done with you selling me out / tell me once don’t tell me twice / if you could shut your mouth that would be nice / i’ve heard this story far too many times / got me thinking once again / has all this time with you been spent in vain? / cuz thru it all i still can feel your pain / and still i’m not quite sure just where i stand / and still i’m not quite sure just who i am / will any of this matter down the line / have all these sixteen years been wasted time / i don’t know!! / sixteen wasted years gone past / sixteen wasted years gone in a flash / you never know just how time kicks your ass

the songwriting process - counting down the days / it’s all been such a haze / but still i like to say that i’ll reach you / take a melody / and add some words that mean / nothing to me and surely less to you / an easy life would have been nice / but now we’re binded [sic] by sheer cruel design / as i write these songs / i’ve yet to right my wrongs / a sick sense of belonging just to you

pay your royalties (to the tagen) - pick up the phone boys tagen's calling / bitchin’ ‘bout volume and all that squallin' / says you’ve been making a pretty buck / but with the name no deal's been struck / forgot who gave you that monkey’s title / can't come up with songs sitting extra idle / monkey bang? oh that’s a shame / gonna rip 'em all out till he’s defanged / bang bang, warn the gang / monkeys pissin' on yo name / see no evil, speak no evil / hear that racket? sounds so feeble / ain't no monkeys jumpin' on the bed / band fell off, ears bleeding red / shocked your monkey? ran out of lucky / best go on home and scratch your nutties / "monkeybang", so the chimp sang / best go to your jungle, sit there and hang / zoo's been waiting for a fool like you / fling some shit and they won’t screw / monkey, monkey, feelin' so funky / even insulted by videogamedunkey / go pick them bugs off your homie’s back / looking at me? just go home and pack / running out of music, better pick up the slack / when tagen's around no turnin' back / remember on the track when tagen said that name? / the one givin' you that vision of fame / what you forgotten it? oh shame shame shame / little king wants that royalty claimed / look at that band, they hittin' that note / even lakes on rats are keeping afloat / is that little chimp still pulling on that chain? / better than plucking on those silly strangs / bang bang, warn the gang / monkeys pissin' on yo name / see no evil, speak no evil / hear that racket? sounds so feeble / monkeys jumpin' on the bed / band fell off, ears bleeding red / shocked your monkey? ran out of lucky / best go home and scratch your nutties / "monkeybang", so the chimp sang / go back to your jungle, sit there and hang / zoo's been waiting for a fool like you  / fling some shit and they won’t screw / monkey, monkey, feelin' so funky / even insulted by videogamedunkey / go pick them bugs off your homie’s back / looking at me? boy, just go home and pack / running out of music better pick up the slack / when tagen's around no turnin' back / swinger from a vine, ain’t no friend of mine / go so tangled up, boy, what a bind / tasty bananas looking extra yellow / take the fruit away, you’ll sit there and bellow / dumb little monkeys got no wit / throwin' little fits while spanking it / taken the name, that’s some pretty big smack / never come around or he'll shoot you back / one little monkey jumping on the the bed / he fell off and cracked his head / went to the doctor and which i said / "ain't no monkeys jumping on the bed" / two little monkeysv jumping on the the bed / he fell off and cracked his head / went to the doctor for which i said / "ain't no monkeys jumping on the bed" / three little monkeys jumping on the the bed / band fell off, he cracked his head / went to the doctor and which i said / "ain't no monkeys jumping on the bed" / four little monkeys jumping on the the bed / he fell off and cracked his head / went to the doctor and which i said / "ain't no monkeys jumping on the bed" / five little monkeys jumping on the the bed / he fell off and cracked his head / went to the doctor for which i said / "ain't no monkeys jumping on the…" / “...bed.”

the big ceremony [instrumental] - 🎻🎻🎻🎻

graduation day - another day, another dime / another darling sputtered out before their time / sweet relief, and sleepy dreams / it tempts me every waking moment, as you’ve seen / forgotten pacts, it’s all an act / who is there to trust and who will shoot me back / this waiting game’s been pretty lame / promise me my time has come, no strings attached / won’t deny, nor justify / what a total goddamn asswipe i was / but you and i, so far behind / can we talk this out? / there’s so much more that i’d like to say / that i struggle to articulate / but you won’t do as much as look my way / so how the hell do i get it out before graduation day / graduation day / few more hours and i’m on my way / away / so maybe i’ll give up on life / to stop the overwhelming sickness in my mind / for all i know, it’s overblown / but when i’m wrong there’s no-one left to tell me so / so in time, when i die / i’ll take alook on to my right / i’ll see some face, or fill in the blanks / but it won’t be you / a friend told me i’ll always feel this way / and i’m inclined to believe what she says / because we’re really not too different / at least she puts that little bit of effort in / she admits, life’s a bitch / but it’s her bitch and she calls the shots / wish that i had that in mind / before i waited around, and baby, now it’s graduation day / graduation day / few more hours and you’re on your way / away…

tired (floating away) - it’s week after week after week after week / and i’m not seeing any signs of relief / but escape from reality hides in your sleep / it’s all i can think of now / floating away / floating away / floating away / i’m floating away / i’m floating away / i’m floating away / a long fucking day ends a long fucking week / and i want nothing more than to just go to sleep / if there’s anything more that you’d like to speak / you better make it quick / cuz i’m floating away / floating away / floating away / floating away / floating away / floating away

spasm - tear up all the fuckin pictures / and burn all the letters, burn all the letters / i don't want you leaving a single trace / oh just set the memories aflame / you're telling me i lost it / oh, did i ever really have it in the first place? / hell, did you ever have it? /i hope you know that deep down / you're no better than me /i saw you there / i saw you there / i saw you there / i saw you there / i saw you there / i saw you there, oh / oh the sun sets on another beautiful day / and with that a new one begins / oh but / what's setting them apart / what's the difference? / same ol’ same ol’… / i saw you there / i saw you there / i saw you there / i saw you there / i saw you there / i saw you there, oh / i saw you there / i saw you there / i saw you there / i saw you there / i saw you there / i saw you there

ghosts in the sky - ghosts in the sky at the hotel late at night / won’t shut their traps about the past and its delights / don’t know what it is they’re looking for or if it’s even here / but these ghosts in the sky will do anything but leave me be / ghosts in the sky through the window to my right / seeing as they’re ghosts and all you could say it’s a fright / what is there to gain from this, oh what is there to see / just a bunch of ghosts in the sky who thrive off my defeat / can’t be sure of anything no more / ghosts in the sky making getting by such a goddamn chore / ghosts in the sky out the door an ugly sight / ain’t gonna let me live down the day the music died / don’t know what it is they’re looking for or if it’s even here / but these ghosts in the sky will do anything but leave me be / can’t be sure of anything no more / ghosts in the sky making getting by such a goddamn chore

shit town blues - every passing minute, every passerby / grows ever so observent of my living lie / what have i got to show? what have i got to lose? / clearly nothing much, i’ve already lost you / walk down to the speedway, a crackhead tells me “stop!” / he asks me to drop ev’rything, i give him all i got / then in an act of pity, he hands over a buck / and if i feel i've had enough / i'll just step into the road / let the streetcars tear me up / for what i am, a bag of bones / and when they throw me underground / without as much as a small tomb / it better be in some other town / i’ve got a case of shit town blues / nobody cares to listen, nobody understands / no-one to talk this out with, no-one to take my hand / but what can i expect? with all of my regrets / i’d say i got what i deserved, wouldn’t you agree? / during that final argument, the ugly week of may / you told me i’d find somebody who’d feel the same way / and purely out of spite, i’m turning down invites / and if i feel i've had enough / i'll just step into the road / let the streetcars tear me up / for what i am, a bag of bones / and when they throw me underground / without as much as a small tomb / it better be in some other town / i’ve got a case of shit town blues / and if i feel i've had enough / and if i feel i've had enough / and if i feel i've had enough, woah / and if i feel i've had enough / i’ve got a case of shit town blues, fuck you!

i am the man - i’m not looking to party / not to be a buzzkill / but you come off as a tad too obnoxious / and i will die on this hill / i’m not looking for a hookup / or someone to spend the night / but if you promise me you’re in it for life, well / i’m down as long as you— / understand / i’ve got a plan / cuz i am the man / well goddamn, baby, i am the man / even when nothing goes according to plan / i’m making a name, no time for your dumb games / so do me a favor: fuck off / i’m not looking to make it big / find another cash cow / i’m just trying to win my love back / not the point, anyhow / i don’t care for the songs you wanna hear / they mean nothing to me / by no means am i your personal jukebox / would you just happen to— / understand / i’ve got a plan / cuz i am the man / well goddamn, baby, i am the man / even when nothing goes according to plan / i’m making a name, no time for your dumb games / so do me a favor: fuck off / well goddamn, baby, i am the man / although nothing’s gone according to plan  / i’m making a name, no time for your dumb games / don’t give a damn if i sound out of tune / are you incapable of reading the room? / understand we are a one-man band / for you / well goddamn, baby, i am the man / even when nothing goes according to plan / i’m making a name, no time for your dumb games / so do me a favor: fuck off / notice me, worship me / tell me all the things i wanna hear / well goddamn, baby, i am the man / even when nothing goes according to plan / i’m making a name, no time for your dumb games / so do me a favor: fuck off

girl at the flea market [instrumental] - 🚀

la acoustica - do do do do do do / do do do do do do / do do do do do do / do do do do do do / how could i be so blind? / in front of me this entire time / the greatest catch, the perfect match, perhaps my better half / take a picture, make it last / i just wanna hold you in my arms / and keep you, i’d say, a ways away from— / i just wanna hold you in my arms / and keep you, i’d say, a ways away from haaaarrrmmm / do do do do do do / do do do do do do / do do do do do do / do do do do do do / enough about matching freak / i don’t know how you’ll ever match my geek / but here you are, beside my heart, with nothing in between / and for the first time i feel seen / i just wanna hold you in my arms / and keep you, i’d say, a ways away from— / i just wanna hold you in my arms / and keep you, i’d say, a ways away from haaaarrrmmm / if this ain’t destiny then i don’t know what is / how could i have always missed? / i just wanna hold you in my arms / and keep you, i’d say, a ways away from— / i just wanna hold you in my arms / and keep you, i’d say, a ways away from— / i just wanna hold you in my arms / and keep you, i’d say, a ways away / from haaaarrrmmm / if this ain’t destiny then i don’t know what is / how could i have always missed you / if this ain’t destiny then i don’t know what is / how could i have ever missed you

i’m in love with your best friend - i need appreciation / done with all this desecration / of the passion i felt just yesterday / as together we grow older / and with time i’ve grown much bolder / now i’ve fin’ly got the courage to say / i can’t say you’re insufferable / but somewhat of a handful / and the world does not revolve around you / but your buddy over there / i can say for sure she cares / about more than just her sorry ol’ self / i know this may sound harsh / perhaps a bit too far / you leave a lot to be desired… / i’m in love with your best friend / la-la, la-la-la, la-la, la-la / la-la, la-la-la, la-la, la-la / you’re the epitome of modern / oh it shouldn’t be a problem / when i cannot write you back all the time / and when i get ‘round to responding / oh i’m sure that you’ll be sobbing / over how i’m coming off as “so dry” / i know this may sound harsh / perhaps a bit too far / you leave a lot to be desired… / i’m in love with your best friend / la-la, la-la-la, la-la, la-la / la-la, la-la-la, la-la, la-la / la-la, la-la-la, la-la, la-la / la-la, la-la-la, la-la, la-la

vanity - whatever you dream / whatever your heart so desires / to keep alight your soul’s harsh fire / just please let me know / and baby i’ll be sure to go / ‘bout to the end of the planet or so / vanity / can’t you see? / i’m trying everything / to make this our reality / vanity / can’t you see? / i’m trying everything / but you gotta show some energy / immersed in a dream / i’m not quite sure just with who / but she looks a lot like you / settling down / in some waterside town / where her strange silence surrounds / monkey on a mission dear / he’s got a vision clear / he dreams the way you do / is it so alien to you? / vanity / can’t you see? / i’m trying everything / to make this our reality / vanity / can’t you see? / i’m trying everything / but you gotta show some energy / monkey on a mission dear / he’s got a vision clear / he dreams the way you do / is it so alien to you? / that a geek like lil’ ol’ me / could fall for a geek like lil’ ol’ you / and when i say the things i say / i mean as such in a most endearing way

i’d like 2 like u - hi hello, thanks a lot / i don’t know just what you want / would you like somebody sensitive, abrasive or whatnot / god, you’re beautiful, you’re hot / you’re everything that i am not / wish that i could be a heartthrob or rather somebody less blah / don’t you ever let me go / like the last one or the ones before / don’t you ever let me go / cuz i don’t think that i could take the fall / been knocked down, kicked around / it’s all been my own doing / wish that i could shut my mouth when i’m with u / forget tonight, forget the rest / feelin’ i’m not ready yet / maybe i just need some time alone as you’ve come to expect / but the isolation hurts / i cannot function, i get worse / just get back to me next month and hope that i don’t end things first / don’t you ever let me go / like the last one or the ones before / don’t you ever let me go / cuz i don’t think that i could take the fall / been knocked down, kicked around / it’s all been my own doing / wish that i could shut my mouth when i’m with u / ‘cuz i like u!

seven days - so i got myself a place / so very far away / but still in every face / i see a little bit of you / i smile and i wave / as i go about my day / thinking ‘bout the way / you’re doing much better than i / i’m always proving how / time in, time out / i am incapable of change / i met somebody today / and while it went okay / i felt as if my brain / was always in some other place / don’t think i’ll ever date / as still i cannot shake / the concept of soulmates / said “soulmates” being you and i / you’ll call me weak for this / for giving up / believe me when i say i’ve tried / seven days is all it really takes / seven days is all it really takes / seven days is all it really takes / seven days is all it really takes

lovebomber (once & for all) - now at the risk of sounding out of touch / don’t you think that you’re a little much / have you heard of this crazy little thing called love? / why would you tell me all your deepest woes / i’ve only known you for a week or so / what ever happened to taking this whole thing slow? / i wanna see you break / right down to your core / i wanna see you break / once and for all / years into months and weeks into days / bring me the next and then throw them away / minutes to seconds, oh, please spare me one? / who needs a lover when you’ve got a ton? / i wanna see you break / break and break some more / i wanna see you break / right down to your core / once and for all / you won’t shut up ‘bout wanting me inside you / when all i want is just to see inside you / if not to get a glimpse at how the hell you work / but we both know that this is all on me / trying to force myself into the scene / when we both know just what i really need / i need a lucky break / to get back on my feet / i need a lucky break / once and for all / years into months and weeks into days / bring me the next and then throw them away / minutes to seconds, oh, please spare me one? / who needs a lover when you’ve got a ton? / i need a lucky break / too stubborn for defeat / i need a lucky break / to get back on my feet / years into months and weeks into days / bring me the next and then throw them away / minutes to seconds, oh, please spare me one? / who needs a lover when you’ve got a ton? / i wanna see you break / break and break some more / i wanna see you break / right down to your core / once and for all

lucky guy - oh you’re beautiful / and you’re not mine / i should be bothered but i must say i feel fine / never thought that i would had a chance / you’re way out of my league / to settle down so easily would be a crime / so anyone can dream / but not many can say / that they’re the lucky guy you’re seeing today / i’ll admit we were always doomed / that whole stylistic clash / you needed someone a bit more bold & brash / but now you’ve got yourself / someone who brings out your best / far too enamored by the sight of you to protest / so anyone can dream / but not many can say / that they’re the lucky guy who’s spending the day / with you / so anyone can dream / but not many can say / that they’re the lucky guy you’re seeing today / so anyone can dream / but not many can say / that they’re the lucky guy who’s spending the day / with you / so anyone can dream / but not many can say / that they’re the lucky guy you’re seeing today / today / today

i hate it here - feeling that the best of years are all within my past / wish i took some pictures ‘cuz i knew it wouldn’t last / everybody needs someone but what do i deserve? / everybody’s got big dreams, who am i to judge? / close my eyes, and still you’re there beside me / open wide, wondering why i’m still alive / i’ve come to find / i think i need a break / i think i want a break, ay-yeah / oh-oh, oh-oh / oh-oh, oh-oh / i don’t know why i just sit and rot inside / maybe she’d want me if i only had the drive / everybody feels some way, i just can’t contemplate / everyone’ll have their day but how long will i wait? / close my eyes, and still you’re there beside / open wide, wondering why i’m still alive / la-di-da, it sure ain’t gettin’ easy / i’ve come to find / i think i need to break / i think i’m bound to break / i think i’ll take a break / ‘cuz i hate it here

i’m sorry - can you hear me? / wherever you’ve wound up in life / i wasn’t easy / and baby i’m sorry you had to deal / if i can’t love you / then i will love nobody else / if i can’t have you / then i will settle for myself / i still remember / the day i walked in to your tears / you said it’s not my fault / but baby i’m sorry you had to deal / i know i’m no-one / but you saw past my faults somehow / but you need someone / to treat you better than i have / i’d say i’d give it all away to you / but the things that i’ve still got in life are too few / sweetie i’m sorry

rocket - love / bleed in your own light / dream of your own life / i miss me / i miss everything i'll never be / and on and on / i torch my soul to show the world / that i am pure deep inside my heart, heart / no more lies / “is it that hard to be honest?” / a crown of horns / an image formed, deformed / the mark i've borne / a mark of scorn to you / consume my love devour my hate / it only powers my escape / the moon is out the stars invite / i think i'll leave tonite / soon i'll find myself alone / to relax and fade away / do you know what's coming [now/down]? / do you know i couldn't stay free? / yeah, oh / free! / i shall be free / i shall be free / i shall be free, free / free of those voices inside me / love / i shall be free